Remake™

Life's complexity has no boundaries

2011-11-19T20:57:00.020+08:00

As you all know, I think a lot.

I wonder the universe, I ponder the society's system and I question the celestial.

I have been a Social Science student for two semesters. I pretty much know a lot what happen around the world. I personally came out with an idea which is very bold. Before I say it, let me tell you some of the key facts.
Do you know that homosexual exists throughout human's history? In the past, people that were homosexual weren't sure what themselves were. Because no one had the knowledge to explain what happened inside them and no one had ever provided an evidence of sameness in sexual preference. And also due to the traditional superstitious culture, where weird people were mostly been discriminated. There is rumor that William Shakespear was a gay. The rumor says that in his literature, he always emphasized the relationship with his male-best-friend. Now, Shakespear has been proved non of his acts were written by him. (Prove) In contemporary of now, 10% of the population are homosexual. This is all because Human Rights' movement people are daring to voice out their sexual orientation.
Do you know that there are some people in the world that hunt seals, whales, sharks as their culture and then we call it as animal cruelty? People in Inuit do that for centuries and now thanks to globalization, they are monitored by millions. We claim them wrong and wanting them to stop, but little of them know that that is a culture that lives within them for so long already.
In the past, there were people that kill their new born children if they were to be female. We call it infanticide. Because they only wanted male.
Do you know that somewhere in China that called Musuo, they practice matriarchal culture where is female as the head of the society. Women there do not marry and they change their companions whenever they like. No marriage and in their dictionary, father doesn't exist. Men there are never called as father from any children because no one knows who is the father since they always change mate.
There are still a lot of facts that are astonishing that I couldn't believe stuff like that exist.
Which is why I am here to say that culture is human's creation. Righteousness is created by human's preference. And we can see that the world now is so moral because our law, our system are protecting ourselves from harm. But, which means whatever we feel is right isn't really right because there is no one to judge the conscience. If you say religion will judge, I say religion is also human's creation since religion is a culture too.
That is the purpose of my post. Religion is human's creation! Look back in time, one to ten million years ago, which the timeline of existence of human. They are called Hunter-Gatherers. Some, even exist today. They do/did not have religion. At that moment, Buddhism, Christianity or Islam had not been created. If were to say that Buddha was once a prince, if were to say Jesus was once downed to Earth, if were to say Muhammad was once a respected public figure, all these happened AFTER Hunter-Gatherers timeline. The truth behind each religion is somewhat a myth but people choose to believe. No offence, I am an atheist, I do respect every religion, just that I want to prove my point, and sorry if you feel offended, I mean no evil.
I find it interesting. My lecturer said, Love as we know, did not commonly exist in the past. Love existed only at the 20th century. Last time, most people get together was because of lineage(next generation) and because of sexual desire. Cool right?

So let's think about it, if things that have been understood now are just a mere human's creations, what are we suppose to understand?
This absolute question brings back to the question, What is the purpose of life?
And me, myself, as an educated in different field of social science and science(cosmology), I am here to say, Life is formed, just to die. Even planets, stars and galaxies die; therefore, we might as well as say they are lives too. A life, needs to be alive, and to be alive is to have fair amount of fixed energy.

This is my epic conclusion. Life's complexity has no boundaries.
A very cool idea, I am afraid that my idea will be stolen and make into production. This is really a genuine idea from my head. You have never seen a movie or a book or someone telling stuff like that to you right? Yup, is my idea!! But I would like to share, because it is cool.
This post might have bring up question to you on morality. What is right might be wrong(in the future) and what is wrong might be right(in the past). BECAUSE THERE IS NO ONE TO JUDGE, and I might wrong to, because I DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO JUDGE.
In short, this post has no meaning. Life has no meaning but to die. Ya, fuck it man, Life's complexity is seriously has no boundaries, you can really spend years cracking out of it but in no answers. This is life.

Your act is what you are

2011-11-11T00:22:00.008+08:00

Your act is what you are.

You are what you repeatedly do.

If you condemn, you will be condemned.
If you kill, you will be killed.

If you ignore, you will be ignored.
If you lose yourself now, you will be losing yourself forever.

I have been trying to write for quite some time, and it all ended up in erasure.

Let's talk about myself. How great am I. I don't kill, I don't litter, I don't gossip, I don't hate, I don't naysay, I don't bully, I don't lie. But you? Do you kill? Litter? Gossip? Hate? Naysay? Bully and lie?
You do. Trust me, you do.
I have lived my life, so bold, to hold onto these principles so tight that not even a single day, I forswear my practices.

I am trying too hard to be a nice person. I am exploited, used, counted-on, swung around and over kindness has leaded to being a victim of browbeater. Provoked, aggravated and annoyed.
My pride is strong as a mountain. My ego is high as the celestial. And my faith is indiscernibly might.

Henceforth, I learn my lesson. People that play around me, forgive them. They are to be saved. Put the joke on me, put the blame on me, put your uncontrolled immatureness on me. Because I will do my best to take them all over my shoulder. I am this because my dad was once this. I have been through far more hardship that you could even imagine. Yet, I am still standing tall, unaffected and optimistic. All thanks to constant inspiration and motivation that drive me throughout all the harsh toils and sufferance.

To the people that condemn, complain, bully and whine, are you satisfied with a life you living now? Trust me, you don't; if you do, you won't, one day.

Your act is what you are. Be good, you are good. Be bad, you are to be saved.

It is not easy.

2011-11-01T00:19:00.004+08:00

It is not easy to be me. The proudest thing about myself is to be a vegetarian. And in regard of that, I have been "jokingly(?)"laughed about it. Any great people that know the vegetarianism of me would always come with surprise of knowing and compliment me. Still, there are people do not understand how great to be one of the green. I have save countless of lives, not just animals, but humans. I heard that a vegetarian, has a better ability to control temperance of anger. I suppose that, it should be tolerance.

It is not easy to be me. The proudest thing I ever had is a man, and the man is gone. A broken home, untidiness, loneliness, are things that don't bother me much. The mental nature is the fuckest part. A thing that was once everything to you but now it shattered into nothingness. Even memory tries to leave you out of your emotion because it always brings you down. If he still lives, imagine what life could I live with a man that holds a master degree which he struggled through education with barely a nickel? The man deserves a medal from the prime minister.

It is not easy to be me. Do you believe I live my live henceforth, without being a prayer? During Christmas, I tell myself I can do it, instead of wishing I got the fuck out of it. Being an advocate in cosmology, still, always being condemn from the eyes of societal idiots. To have such thinking development to forsake what had been implied your whole life's faith isn't as easy when you stop any of your addiction. I don't wish, I just do with such confidence that no one could stop me.

It is not easy to be me. I walk down a street seeing a guy cleaning up the mess that people make, my heart shivers. A sense of self-condemnatory is so strong until it motivates me never stay to be ignorance but to solve the problem as a whole. Sympathy, is my vulnerable weakness. Everyone deserves better. Which also I personally feel God is unnecessary, because I have seen many people fighting for survival, including animals that facing cruelty. I see no Gods in any of these. Worse to worse, I have seen my hero died in uncurable ailment. The feeling that makes you have serious suicidal thought, not your own life, but your loved one; educators call it euthanasia.

Remember, you always represent something. It could be a company, your school, your dad and mum or your religion. Do not disgrace what you represent, because they are not as jerk as you. You defame what you represent, is like putting yourself in shame. You hit me, affronted me, I acted nothing. And still, you call yourself a disciple/follower? I had never do a thing that would disrepute my family or anything I represent. Do you have the courage to say what that? And also, if you were to judge a thing, recall your position; are you knowledgable enough? Take life-achievement into account, surprisingly people that achieve more do not do stuff like provoking or making people aggravate. Don't you feel ashame what already a mediocre still trying to act supreme?

Some people judge even when they are in no condition of understanding and discerning. The intense superior moral development which has been possessed from various crucial life experience which majority has never had a picture of the seriousness has made me have a great conscience. All I can conclude is that, the worst role you could ever play in your life isn't a life-taker, but a naysayer.

If you still think you have things to argue about, name yourself; I will grant you my life-time salutation.

2011-10-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

I'm motivated today~

2011-09-28T08:39:00.002+08:00

"We must to live each day like it's the last"-Michael Jackson.
An idea by Zig Ziglar, he says when we live each day in full potential, motivated either by desire or demand, we will be at least 4 times more productive and fruitful. When humans push themselves off their limits, results will be tripled or even quadrupled better than expected. This is just a simple concept that lead people to succession. When I say success, I mean the extreme level of successfulness; as in being the world best of any field. These might mean nothing to you because social scientists some say that these principles most likely be fully mastered only after their late 40s. Well, you can say my mental development goes faster than the normal people but I can tell you that I learnt these only from several books. Some people might not pick up a thing when they read, because they aren't ready to reach the certain level of maturity. I'm different because I am always involve with great productions that inspire me all the time.
So, I ask, "How to live a perfect live?" I will answer, "Just hold onto the great principles from the motivational books as strong as when a typhoon hits you and you grasp on railing or a lamppost. Never lose your grasp by distraction, fatigue and depression; or else you'll lose yourself in nowhere."

I am begging you, please look at the world! Stop being a fucktard like what you are now!!! If you're a believer, IGNORANCE IS A SIN!!!

2011-09-15T21:34:00.004+08:00

A five minutes conversation is sufficed to aggravate me off my limit.

The world has to change. The fucking people have to change.

The world needs educated people, not graduated people.

The world needs believers, not pessimists.

The world needs selflessness people, not fucktard stingy asses.

The world needs futuristic people, not just people that care about the current.

The world needs equality, not injustice.

The world needs changes. If the world would need a person to lead the change, to make people put faith on, that is me. But I wouldn't do that, because if I be a leader, I would be excessively good. I would change capitalism into something you never understand, I would give everything you need. Though, I wouldn't do all these. Because, perfection is impossible. I guess no one in the world had ever possessed a thinking as I do. I am not trying to be superior, just that I am already superior.

As a human, as if I can speak for God, even if He exists or doesn't, as a human, WE HAVE TO BE CONSIDERATE!!! SO START USING YOUR FUCKTARD BRAIN!!! I believe all holy books state what I have just said!! Stop thinking where and what your dinner would be, start thinking of your family, your future, your pride, your responsibility, your enthusiasm, your believes. The world needs changes, and to make it possible, it has to be started by YOU.

WAKE UP PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can write a book about this if you want me to. This is how writers express our wrath and discomfort looking at the shit world with shit people in it.

Movie Script by ME :)

2011-08-07T16:41:00.002+08:00

For moral assignment. Video making.

You all want an astonishing, mind-blowing and heartwrenching storyline? It's simple.

Names:
Victim: Steve Rogers
Bully: Eddie Morra
Warlock: Jonas Martin

Steve Rogers was nurturanced by a single mother since he was 5. His dad was a great man that worked under Amazon as book editor. He has no siblings. His mom doesn't have any education qualification so she struggles lots of year to keep Steve on life track. Due to this condition, he has been living in depression throughout his life. He has no characteristic of being a man because he has no role to look up to. However, he has a talent. It's singing. He is too afraid to show the people and therefore, he doesn't acknowledge his talent. Until, he meets Betsy Ross.

Eddie Morra. A futuristic and a brilliant boy. His dad doesn't care about his existence because he doesn't want to continue his dad legacy in business. Eddie believes that in a capitalistic world, business is only a harm to society without anyone realizing. At the age of 16, he met Dr. Frankenstein. Dr Frankenstein just escaped the prison of psychopath (Arkham Asylum). He gave him a bag of pills. Containing around 2000 of them. He said, take the pill daily and he rushed off because B-man and the cops were after him. So, Eddie took pill that day, and thereafter, he takes everyday. He becomes a genius. He solves every problems he encounters and unconsciously saves the world couple of time. (http://wanxiangs.blogspot.com/2011/07/i-am.html, More about his contributions) However, message has been received by the world of hell and warlock has been sent to Earth to stop Eddie because he is changing the world's fate.

The warlock, Jonas Martin. From the world of Hell aka Odin. He cast a spell on Eddie Morra. The spell is to enhance the evil side of Eddie Morra. The destructive that Eddie Morra would make is unimaginable because of his boundless intellectual.

So, Eddie Morra turns into an evil. He, at his college, becomes a big bully. He hurts Steve Rogers so bad that until even Steve Rogers complains to the authority but the authority has no right to lay a hand on him because his dad is rich. Steve Rogers has been bitten up everyday until he barely stands. Then, Steve Rogers met Betsy Ross at the clinic. She works as a nurse and she is elegant and kind. She treats Steve Rogers almost everyday because of Steve's severe injuries that bitten by Eddie Morra. By days, Steve runs out of money and Betsy Ross goes to his house and treats him for free. A night, a passionate night, she tells Steve Rogers, "It's ok to be mad, stand up for yourself, I have faith in you" and kisses his forehead. Steve gets motivated and he knows he has to be more masculine not just to stop the bully and also to get Betsy Ross to be his girl friend.

The next day, when Eddie Morra pays the visit again, Steve Rogers starts to speak up. His words are strong and convincing, people around starts to stack up. The crowd is surprised that Steve finally speaks up. And casually, Betsy Ross is there too. She is scare that Steve might gets bitten up and die because this is the first time Eddie Morra gets negative attentions. As the moment Eddie Morra throws his fist to Steve which barely standing, Betsy Ross acts as shield to protect Steve. Eddie Morra's heart crumples for a second and the evil spell cast by Jonas Martin has been disabled for a second. Without hesitation, Eddie Morra with his conscious back, grasps a pencil from the crowd and stabs it into his heart. The warlock, Jonas Martin, appears from nowhere. He carries Eddie Morra up and vanishes within the air.

END OF THE STORY. Writter, Yap Wan Xiang. Inspired by the movie Limitless. Characters from Captain America and The Vampire Diaries.

I am...

2011-07-23T16:55:00.001+08:00

I've something to confess. I had been taking medication, drugs to be exact since I was 6. At that particular day, I drew identical Mona Lisa by Da Vinci and sold to the blackmarket; and played the toughest piano piece Sonata No.29 from Beethoven as the first time I ever touched a piano. Ever since, I ate only once every two weeks, drank once every 5 days and slept every 1 month because I altered the rhythmic beats of my heart. This year, on 1st of May, I was the one who told US military the hideout of Osama Bin Laden; and on 11th of March I was the first one who called Pacific Tsunami Warning Canter in Hawaii of the upcoming earthquake in Japan. I read Stephen Hawking's book "The Grand Design" entirely in 16 minutes and understood everything. I could recap what my mum said when I was just a mere baby, I could solve any problem, and I'd saved the world a couple of times. But the only thing I couldn't solve is getting an extra pill of the drugs. On 26 of June, the day when I ran out of the pill, I was blind and I couldn't move a single muscle in my body. The doctor said I'm having motor neurone disease and not much days left to live. I'm writing this is because I don't want the world to forget what I'd done. Embrace me as the Earth's savior.

Astonishing Experience

2011-06-21T00:39:00.002+08:00

11.35 p.m. 20th of June 2011.

I was surfing around the facebook and at the time, Shienrun and I were having conversation on my wall-post. We were talking about picture stuff, and I commented there about paradox, which means thing that happens in the way that doesn't suppose to be so. While then, I was connecting to Garena to start playing Dota. I use to play UCPLAY but I don't know why, it doesn't work well since this morning til now. ( As the game got started, I was so vivid to use Nevermore. And so, I picked it and I bought the best initial items and couldn't wait the game to start, because I'm playing in Garena, all I need to worry about how own could I be, not the matter that lies around win or lose. I solo-ed mid and my opponent was Huskar. It was kind of a bad starting, I miss my denies and miss my creep kills, and that doesn't happen always.

Boom ! Here came the moment... *Pluggg* That was all I heard, and that sense of hearing made my losing one my senses, my sight. It was a blackout. I am quite a coward to creepy stuff always,

but I surprice myself that even though I was terrified, I was able to make the best move, it was to find my mobile phone. And of course, my laptop died off, because I used plugged-in without

battery in it. Back to the event, I grapped my mobile phone, quickly unlock it by pressing star follow by the button below the unlock word on the screen. I quickly flipped to the torch light

application and switched on the light. A sense of relief rushed through my brain. And so, I started thinking what cause this blackout. One of my senses, which is smell, detected unusual smell which kind of similar to carbon dioxide, intense carbon dioxide, that made the reason why it smelled. I quickly came down the stairs and grasped the door keys and my car key. As I grasped my car key into my hand, it reminded me that, "hell yeah, I have a car already." Then, I quickly opened the front door, and turned on my car into accessory stage so the lights would've worked.

Later on, is to look around what happenned. I saw every house was in dark. And there is an intense fog in couple meters down the road and behind of me, which is a small yard of area which grow untaken care's plants. I looked up the skies, I looked into 3 directions, the one down the road, the one behind me, and the one my house is facing. I could literally saw some lights on the skies. This might not mean much to you, but I'm an expert. It's something simple call light pollution, as long as you could see some light, that means it isn't global blackout, or nation blackout. Why would I even thought about global blackout? Because based on several documentaries, they state that next year 2012, there'll be global blackout which cause my the cosmatic solar climax; solar flares energy unleashes directly towards our Earth. This whole thing was in my brain. Is it a cosmatic occurrence? Answer was no, because like I said, there was still light pollution; and also it's not 2012 yet.

I was then quickly used my mobile phone to take down these astonishing views that I couldn't see everyday. The first picture was the one down the road. It was amazing view. Creepy yet adventurous. Then, the one behind me, and in front of my house. By the time, about 10 minutes after since the blackout happened, my neighbour, which was Indian family was out the road, same as me. They were talking, but I couldn't understand. And it really reminded me that my eldest brother was once said that, this neighbour, keeps our neighbourhood feels secured. Which I was really agree at the very moment. Not long later on, I get into the car, and sat on the driver's seat. Wooohooo, cool stuff happened again. I heard a person was walking up the road, with a slipper dragging along.

Ha! He really didn't know how to walk properly. And he was holding a torchlight in the mean time. This picture, it looked so much like from a movie or a game. He was fat, especially his stomach.

More like a butcher look, but all these were just my imagination.

So, as what I wrote here, in between the event, I texted May Yee. Ohh, look how good am I as a friend. I told her I wish I have I DSLR with me so I could picture what I see. However, she's a

bitch as always. Stop replying after few messages. I know you'll read this, BITCH ! :)

At around 11.45, I decided to go up stair and plugged my laptop with the battery and start writing down what had happened. I might not put all my thoughts in here, but this piece of writing is kind of satisfying.

Wow, I just almost finish writing, and the electrics are back, 12.33 a.m., 21st June, 2011. It's Leong's birthday. I got to run upstair and post my wish on his facebook wall. Bye...

My first step

2011-05-07T15:58:00.019+08:00

These were my presentation slides. **Read through first ya**I presented in Malaysian Studies class. On that day, I didn't know that I supposed to present that day. I was so unprepared, and I got so nervous. However, I completed it amazingly. When I was presenting, I felt like I was a motivator. Once the MC announced my presentation title, everyone got so anticipated, hand clapping sounds were thundering. And once I read my presentation title, "it's time to change, Malaysians", everyone applauded again. I felt the numb in my both legs, waving from toe to my head. Seriously anxious. As I further talked about it, people started to get more and more silence. Everyone was with me. I criticized people that litter around the environment, split in the street and being so unconcern about the environment. A glance towards the class, I saw some people started to aggravate, because I was denouncing them. When I said we Chinese and Indian shouldn't fight for Malay's and Bumiputera's rights, together with great quotes said by historical philosophers, enhanced my message influential. The audience looks looked even worse. As I continued, people were using strange stares as like calling to stop talking. Until I said "I'm an atheist", and then further explaining myself and my thoughts, they were completely disagree with what I just said. Believe me, I did this presentation in the best potential. I had seen people reactions to it. They were entirely disagree with me. No one would forget what I've said. You would never think that I could be such a great speaker. I was like a speaking Obama. But it was saddening situation , the only thought in my mind was, "Malaysia, hopeless." I just wish someone would agree with me. My dream... ambition, is to change the world. And that was the very first step. It ended up failing. At the very end of the presentation, I even encouraged the audience to start reading motivational books, no one acknowledged it. That day was a significant day. I'd seen how the way people look you when they think you are way too delusional. I just want people to change! I figured that if..., just if one day, everyone has the same thinking as I do, the world would be so perfect. I was damn right saying that to the audience. That was a wakeup call. And no one discerned it !!!

24/03/2011

2011-03-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

Today, I woke up, I got very angry !!!

The first conscious thought today was, I hope I have super strength, so I can break every wall I see !!!!

I am so angry with my result !!! All my relatives called, I told them my result, they were so happy about it, even my brothers. But, I'm not satisfy with it !!!!
To be real, I don't deserve the result. Just look at me, I failed more than 8 subjects during Form 4, and I got to Zamrud. During Form 5, I barely concentrate during lesson. I had never put enormous effort into my studies. I don't deserve that.

But, now I'm being very greedy !!! Even though I don't deserve that, but I WANT MORE !!! They say I should be happy with it, but I hate it !!! ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!

Today is like a mad-day. I can't stop angering !! The course I want is called BA in English Language and Communication/Literature. Communication or Literature, either of those, is ok, as long as it's a bachelor degree in majoring English. The fucking part is, only universities in KL offer that course. A lot of my friends are in Subang U, but I'm in KL ! I hope so much to get in a Subang U, so that I could stay in my aunt house, able to hang around with friends. I don't want to go KL alone )'; It's hard to make new friends. I am shy )'; and no one can tolerate my weirdness. To make new friends, you need to fess up everything about yourself, trying to understand them, you need to blend with them, forcefully. I can't be on my own man. Independent is like an impossible task for me !!! I need friends to hang out with, I need friends to talk to. You can't put me through loneliness. I am soooooo afraid to be alone. If I'm not mistaken, all Geminis are afraid to be alone. )'; Imma die.

Why do I always have weird thinkings or ambition than others ?
First, astronomer. Now, to be a book author. Who will dream to be one of these ?!!!!

Goshh, is it because the motivation book that taught me to ? Follow your desire, acknowledge your talent, illustrate your succession. OMG MAN !!! Sounds so crazy, but, I have always follow what the books say. Hold onto the best principle in life, 4 ultimate evil forces to be overwhelmed. Fear, Fatigue, Depression and Distraction. Do you know how hard is to encounter these ?!!! Especially Fear and Distraction !!! I've been scaring about the ghost since I was small, I'm afraid of insects, I'm afraid of sudden shriek or anything that freak you out. Distraction, this is like a bull's shit. Computer, the most invulnerable distraction ever !!! And a question, is Love a distraction or an enhancement ? Other positive principles are like, persistence, belief, go for high-calls, aim the best, always staying motivated, enthusiastic, positive internal language, never think of the impossibles, bla bla bla... Am I good enough to hold on these principles ? Is it because of these principles, my result is better even though I didn't toil for it ? Let me tell you, 90% of Malaysians don't have these principles in life. But the Americans, yes. They are always avid, doing in best performance, and in full potential. I've been brainwashed by these principles. If I didn't read one, I won't be choosing to be an author.

Now, I got soooooooooooooooooooo crazy. I keep on listening to the same song, CNBLUE - Intuition. CNBLUE is so cool !!!

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All their songs are like, sentimental lyrics, but sing them with rock way !!! They are the coolest ever !!! I have been hugging my pillow as it is a guitar, play like I know how to play one, and sing like I'm a Korea idol. All out of sudden, feel like being an idol !! Being on the stage, and sing ! Hearing the applauses after my performance, is enough to satisfy me even I die tomorrow.

To conclude every dream of mine, what I want is an influential. I want to amaze people. Make them know that what 'cool things' really are. Define the new coolness for the century, all by myself; and make history. To sum up all of that, it will be fame and acknowledgement. I want the world know what am I capable of. That's my dream. Thanks to the motivational books, I got myself on the path I want. Give me 10 years time, I'll amaze the world one day !!!! Take my words !!!

Now, if I have money, not a lot of them, just enough of them, I want to buy a diary. I want to start writing a journal. It's all been influenced by The Vampire Diaries. I have been watching it these few days, the storyline is getting cooler and cooler. I want to write my story down in my diary too. And that diary must be big. A page that able to fill more than 500 words. I would be writing that much. Besides, I want to buy an electronic dictionary. I'm very fussy about dictionary. I want the explanation to be long yet clear enough to be understood. Thesaurus, quotes, idioms, and pronunciation. One more will be booooooooooooks !!! I want to buy book regarding mind-building. Improving memory and creativity. And also fictional novels ~
Money seems very important~ Is like everything, depends how you spend it.

Damn it, I'm still angry !!!! Now, the reason why am I angering, is nothing, though, still angering !! ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!

it's too late to be a pessimist

2011-03-20T01:00:00.005+08:00

This video, I watched it about a year ago ? I don't really remember.
Actually, not this video. What I watched was a complete documentary.
Animal cruelty. Exploitation. All in low profile.
Why in low profile ? Because, ominous has got control our humanity. Not fully, but partially.

The documentary showed how the Japaneses kills the dolphins. Not just one of them, thousand of them. In Taiji, every September to April. 2500 thousands every year.
You know what? The awareness has never been implied. The media will never show, newspaper, magazine, msn homepage, or whatever it called; these issues will never get published.
These medias only show what you'd like to know. Did you ever wonder, what the government is hiding away from you? The government gets control the media, they'd never show these things to you. Even the consequences have showed up, they come with no commitment.
These overdose of dolphin slaughters have set their fleshes into the market.

I think you've seen picture of Japanese's brain of overtaking uncooked food, like Sushi. Their brains got very very gross, they're like been smashed and like been infected by severe viruses.

This is all because dolphin's meat is exploited. In any kind of seafood dishes, in Japan, they are not 100% the fish you thought you're eating. In actuality, dolphin's meat is been replaced in the dishes. I personally don't know how they do it, but they do. Dolphin's meat contains high mercury level. Overtaking it, it would cause fatal illness, for instant organ damages.
Btw, the Japanese's government said it's 'pest control'. I have to agree, dolphin reproduces fast, killing these amount for few years wasn't a big deal for the ecosystem, because no other sea creature hunts dolphin; but it's easy for them to say 'pest control'. They can't even recognize brutality anymore.
They are more industries are doing similar things. Dolphin's slaughter is one thing, it doesn't make any significant disruption to the environment. They're worser scenarios out there causing negative impacts onto the environment. Do you know our forest scale on the globe has already lost half from its original in the last few decades ? Do you know the NASA is doing 6 billion USD experimental research that risks the Earth ? Do you know, if we don't stop wasting water, our Earth will lose out of water by 2050 ? Do you know every each animal being slaughtered for food purposes torture through serious affliction? Stop the consuming would stop the production. There're hell lots of things we didn't get chance to know. But the only way to know these news is to watch documentaries. I suppose that these documentaries wouldn't air in official channel, you've to put effort to get them.

It's time to look at the world. Even if you started looking, it's too late to be a pessimist.

what makes human... human ?

2011-03-18T17:42:00.000+08:00

In this hectic world, do you ever wonder what makes human... human ? Is it intellectual ? or is our feature ? I would say, it's emotion. This idea came from watching a movie, and it made me think of the world most precious undiscernible thing would be emotion, because it's incredibly influential. It affects me, and i believe it would affect anyone around the world, because this is what makes human... human~

Prophecies are not to be believed

2011-03-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

Mayan Calender ends on December 21st 2012, it's called Huna Abcu. It is the perfect alignment galactic equator of the Super Black Hole in the middle of Milky Way, the Sun and the Earth. This only happens every 25800 years. In result, our Earth geography will change. And in 1955, Albert Einstein came out a theory of Pole Shifting, which identical to the Mayan's Prophecy, geography change. It would result in huge climatic alter, tsunami, volcanic eruption and massive earthquake.

Besides, I CHING, one of the Chinese most reliable sources of foretelling book had predicted World War I and II and also predicted similar outcome as the Mayan's Prophecy. It even falls on the same day, December 21st 2012.

However, there are few more prophecies had predicted on the 21st century, there'll be war. For instance The Sibylline prophecy, The Merlin Wizard, The Mother Shipton and The Book of Revelation from St. John. Each of them had made exact prediction at their time. And their assumption on the 21st century war is greatly acknowledged. On 2012, as the sun flare disrupts the Earth magnetic poles, the satallite will go down. As it goes down, all country's military will have great opportunity to launch their nuclear weapons. Preciesly, both America and Russia have more than a thousand of nuclear weapons. China, England, German and France have over 200 nuclear rockets. If the countries have sell the weapons into the wrong hand, Nuclear Warfare will be happening.

And lastly, the Web.bot which is a programme that studies the World Wide Web and takes keywords from it; which means it studies our world unconsciouses. It was originally created to predict the stock market. But it had predicted the terrorist attack on September 11 (911), and it has predicted the same circumstance as the Mayan, accurately on December 21st 2012.

Would all these just coincidence? The fact is, we can't foresee the future. But we can do is, we can live in hope for the future; and we can have an attitude of optimism in our future, and that is the true meaning about prophecies was all about.

All information is given by the documentary, Decoding The Past- Doomsday 2012.

Fear

2011-03-09T23:53:00.001+08:00

It's been a long time since the last time I got so emotional. I had a lot of ideas tonight, very very cool ideas!! But, it's also an extremely scary night.

The creepy stuff came when I just got to bed. Maybe I understand too well in science and makes me think that 'those' are literally possible. Initially, I heard audio feedback.

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Feedback is a very important discovery that could make 2 sources into infinite result. As the simplest example, mirrors. Place one mirror facing one direction, and place the second mirror facing the first mirror. An infinite virtual images will form until the tiniest image that you could see. However, an audio feedback is slightly different. You need a source of sound, a microphone, and a speaker. The source of sound goes through the microphone and plays out from the speaker. But if the sound that plays from the speaker runs into the microphone again, audio feedback occurs. It will create high pitch sound that hurt your ears, feeling uncomforted.

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I heard that. Thanks that I understand it so well, it freaked me out!!!

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I switch on my speaker every night. It's a speaker that cables my laptop actually. It has a blue LED light. LED light saves electric usage and it emits great amount of light. Every night, I switch off all switches of my computer devices except my speaker. I turn my speaker the other way round so it faces my room therefore the blue light shines into my room and I will feel more secure from 'those'.

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My speaker was on and it might responsible for the audio feedback, but thing was strange here; MY MICROPHONE WASN'T CONNECTED ! Yet, I heard audio feedback. Even if the microphone is connected, WHERE THE HELL IS THE SOUNDING SOURCE ?!!! THOSE ? OMFG !!!

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And I always hear sound from my imagination. If I think of a man with scowl looks, I could hear his scream, for a millisecond. The sound is always sharp and it hits right into my eardrums.

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But this audio feedback wasn't as sharp as the sound came from my imagination. It was real !

Second sensation came right after I got scared by the audio feedback sounds. My thoughts ran wild, unlike the typical circumstances, I see few pictures of 'those' in my brain. This time it was special, occasionally only one picture of 'those' came into my brain. And I could see even without using my eyes how horrible it look like. I was so scared, I hid my both hands under my blanket, I would've cover my head into the blanket if is necessary, but I thought of, I need defence so I need visual. The picture of it couldn't get off!! So I started thinking something romantic that could distract me away from fearsome. It worked! But it came again!! This time, I heard footsteps! I couldn't really recognize is it really sounds of footsteps, but I doubted that. And it fucking freaked me out man !!

OMFG ! Now let me tell you why I think 'those' are possible. First, as a typical characteristic of 'those' is they come from ones that've died. And I believe ones that have died will create certain frequency; resonance to be exact.

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Btw, everything around the universe has frequency. One of the crucial thing to make one exists is frequency. Our body emits frequency, your water bottle emits frequency, colours are frequency, every god damn thing you see or not see emits frequency. Only space, vacuum, with zero existence of anything doesn't emit frequency.

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Resonance couldn't be fully understood by the scientists and it fantasizes me that the resonance created when ones that have died. While the resonance is still existing, a dark matter nearby, reaction begins.

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Dark matter is another 'something' that couldn't be understand by cosmologist(scientist). It couldn't be seen by human eyes, and it's barely able to be detected by any high-tech laboratory machinery.

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The dark matter and the resonance of the dead casually has the same frequency rate, and both of them evolve into one. That's how 'those' ever exist in my mind.

It's quite a reliable theory I made out by myself. And I suppose that it certainly explains the paranormal around the cosmo. And I hope I wouldn't encounter any paranormal in my life. PLEASE NO ANY SUPERNATURAL THINGY HAPPENS IN MY LIFE ! I'LL BE VERY UNPLEASANT IF YOU SHOW UP !!!

Perfection?

2011-02-09T23:09:00.001+08:00

Nothing is perfect. I mean it. Explained by Stephen Hawking, perfection simply doesn't exist. From the moment of creation, The Big Bang, trillions of matter and anti-matter were bursted into the vast cosmo. Each matter collided each anti-matter, and pure energy was released, and they were both destroyed after that. Thanks to imperfection, matter was a little bit more than anti-matter, which made the existence of all. Matter, is everything we are. Precisely, it's hydrogen gas. And yes, thanks to imperfection again, the spaces between each hydrogen atom wasn't in perfect order, which gave chance for gravity to pull each of them into singularities, and dark energy (opposing force of gravity) made each star and planet in distance. We all exist, all thanks to imperfection. A perfectly imperfection. If you're looking for a perfect universe from the parallel universes, matter and anti-matter were the same amount, after unleashing pure energy, they left nothingness, and nothingness makes perfection. That's why, nothing is perfect.

Superman

2011-02-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

If you are my close friend, you should have know how much I like about Superman. I wish I could describe the state of my admiration towards Superman to you, but if I do, I'll be in big trouble.

When I was small, before I got mature and decided to be a freethinker, I prayed God, hoping to get the ability of Superman. That was no joke man. Every Chinese New Year when I was small, I craved so much that God gives me Superman's capability right in front of God Statues, in the temple. Not to say disappointment is what I got for what I hoped for, even if God really exists, He won't give me the divine strength.

( stop getting into anything religious )

What I'm about to tell about are the genuine righteousness, virtue, perspective in life, and choose the best solution without any sacrifices that I have learnt from Superman.

You might think Superman is just an ordinary childhood hero series for the kids to spend their time with, you are not completely right. If you watch Justice League or even Superman (both in cartoon, DC comic), every story they had set is science fiction.

Believe me, I understand Parallel Universes right before I got inspire by Superman related shows. Parallel Universes is a theory from quantum physics. It makes perfect sense why and how the theory works.

Let me give you a brief explanation about Parallel Universes.

Singularity. Another theory from Albert Einstein. He said, if anything had to be created, it must be created from a singular source. This brought up an experiment regarding to the light. Imagine, light, as the fastest moving thing we known now as the singular source. Light creates photon, a magnitude to calculate the amount of light. When light passes through a double-slit, one photon will be self-multiply into two or more. And each of the multiplied photon will never met, touch or even enclose with each other. They are parallel fringes. The definition of parallel is extending in the same direction, equidistant at all points,and never converging or diverging.

Don't you think this theory is cool ? Oh, I haven't finished yet. A cool thing about Parallel Universes is, in other universes, there might be having the same you or me, but they just make different decisions. Ok, now this is the thing that I bet will amaze you. Imagine, in other universe, Osama Bin Laden wasn't born, what would happen to the World Trade Center of United Stated? Another circumstance, imagine Adolf Hitler decided not to get into anything political, he just stayed as a typical normal resident in Germany, would World War II ever happens ? World can be changed when we are deciding. That's why, if you want a change, decide the best routine; make sufficient preparation to get ready yourself for challenging obstacles. And you'll stay out of wrong path, persuing what you have been desired.

This theory was often used in Superman's scripts. Even Smallville's.

Get back to Superman.
You wouldn't want to believe that Superman will be so influential if he exists for real.
-He thought me that to choose a greater good, sacrifice is never an option. In life, we should never choose any path that will sacrifice a part from your own that will be harmful to you or your beloved ones. There'll be always another way for solution.

-He thought me pride is a sin. Some time in life, when our pride has been provoked, agitated, we tend to unleash our anger, an ominous side of us that we have never know that we ever had.

-He thought me believing in fate is a bullshit. Fate is for failures to believe in, which always give a reason, 'I'm destined to be that way, it's my fate'. People prompt to blame fate instead of realizing the mistakes they had made which and consequent them blind from the truth.

- One and for most, he, as a perfect example of perfection simply doesn't exist. Kryptonite, the only one that Superman is afraid of. Once he nears Kryptonite, he loses his strength. He is almost mere perfect, but has an ultimate imperfection, which makes him a mediocre.

first day and last day of work

2011-01-10T02:34:00.000+08:00

omg, i don't know what to say man. The job was awful man.
1st, all the waiters there were foreigns from Vietnam. Although they were local people work there too, but they weren't work as a waiter. They worked as ''a someone'' that pour beer professionally.
2nd, the foreigns did lot of bad things today. Terrible man. The left over beer, they collected them, and drank them while the chef, supervisor or manager weren't around.
3rd, the job needed me to work until 2a.m. on Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Other days, it might have the possibility to work until 2a.m. too.
4th, there were a lot of smokers there. The environment was nice. It wasn't a bad place. All customers were rich bastards. But, they smoke.
5th, the restaurant wasn't as professional as I thought of. The dishes were all so dirty. They were just using dishwasher machine to clean them. They were still had stains of dirts there. Gross man. I was worked to clean the spoons, knives and forks by using a cloth to wipe out the water. I wiped so hard just to keep it clean. I wonder, will the foreigns do the same thing?

Hahahax, i'm quite a failure as a worker man. The last job i got before this was last 2 years, I worked for only 2 days. Today, it got even worse, I only worked for 1 day.
Am I being bossy ? I had never experience any toil to earn.
Or I'm being too confident ? While I was working, I thought of, 'This can't be happening man, i'm an A student man. A waiter that works with foreigns ? You must be kidding.'

But I have to say, their payment wasn't that bad. But, it's too difficult for me.
My legs don't have the strength to hold me up for 9 solid hours.
My arm muscles couldn't leave a table all by myself. And, the dishes are made from gold ? They were freaking heavy if you stack few of them man. My arteries and veins that are connecting my hands were almost broke off man.

I feel so sorry for the shop. The main reason I don't want to work is because I don't want work with foreigns as the same level. Not to be racist or anything ominous, a local boy has been dominated by a foreign? omg man. I speak 3 languages fluently man; and as a waiter, I could give perfect service compared to theirs man.

Please tell me my decision was right. Remember all the circumstances first man, work until late night 2a.m. on specific days. Oh ya, my mum said she is lazy to fetch me if it's 2a.m.. And one more thing, that is the lamest thing man. The restaurant or pub or whatever it calls, once the f&b were served, you have to show the customer the bill to prevent they ran away after they finished their meal. And the f&b there were freaking expensive. Especially they sell a barren ( how to spell ?) of beer. It costs 300++ ringgit man. If the customer ran off, what they've ate, it is your responsible to pay their bill. It's crazy. And the stupid system of ordering. Once you key in the wrong ones, the food served, you have to pay yourself. It might sound reasonable for why you should pay the responsibility, but these possibilities of occurring chances are high man.

I have to look for another job. To think about it, I'm so lucky that I can further my studies. Or else, life would be sucks to it max.

oh, and i met 2 fellers i know today man in the ...... whatever it calls, the name of the shop is Overtime, located in the Bukit Tinggi Tower.

Dream

2010-12-22T07:57:00.000+08:00

22/12/2010, 7.58a.m.

I woke up today with an unusual way. Before I slept yesterday, I was having trouble to get into sleep. I was having deep thoughts, thinking what I had did, and what I will do. I don't know how long it took to make me fall asleep, but that night, I had one of the coolest dream that I have never experienced.

Just like a typical dream, it started in middle of nowhere, and having no idea how I get there. If you're in a dream, and you started thinking how you get here, I can assure you that you're having a great mind that makes you very alert and awake in your dream. If you watched before Inception, perhaps you can understand the following better.

Let's get back to the story.

A typical dream, it started in middle of nowhere, and having no idea how I get there. I was going for a movie, before the movie started, I saw the movie's name tittled 'Reagent'. The first thing came into my mind was, 'isn't reagent something I learnt in Chemistry ?'. But as the movie started to roll, I realized it wasn't something related to Chemistry. At the beginning of the movie, I couldn't understand what the movie was trying to convey. But, as the movie went on, I understood what it was trying to show.
The first scene was a girl working as a cleaner in an office. (The circumstances look very familiar to me, and they seem to be from another movie.) She had some conversations with a guy that I could only see the guy's back.

The second scene was the same girl, but working as a supervisor or manager or something in the same office. The scene just changed like that without any explanation. But after some moment, I understood why it happened so. I thought, 'this is a movie with a tittle of Reagent, may be somehow she is someone that has a couple of roles in life.'
And the scene changed again. And this time was different. Everything seemed chaotic, horrifying and thrilling. Before the movie continued, it showed a quick preview of what'll gonna show later on, and it had several minutes of break. Then, I went out from the cinema for toilet. As I was going in, I had a conversation with Wei Xiang. I said, 'you saw that ? why the girl loses her leg just like that? why Jackie Chan did that to her?' And Wei Xiang didn't answer my questions.

It all started again in a place that looked like this:

This creepy hallway was crowded. And I was one of the character in the movie suddenly. I saw a lot of people from different races, for instance, Malay, American... While I was moving along the hallway, I saw 2 guys. Jackie Chan and Joseph Gordon, an actor from Inception.

He was like trying to do something bad to the girl before. And I doubted that he was the guy that talked with the girl in the first scene. And suddenly the girl's appearance came into my mind clearly, she was Arden Cho, actress of Nigahiga's video.

She was caught by the people as a secret agent. And everyone in the hallway was on their way to interrogate her. Everyone seemed ominous and the surrounding was creepy. Before everyone reached there, I saw someone in a toilet that I passed by was holding a grenade. He was trying to swallow the grenade into his body so he won't be spotted by anyone that he was holding one. He was trying to save the girl.

So, after some distance of walking, we reached a place that looked like altar of sacrifice.

She was tied up there. And Jackie Chan approached her and tried to interrogate her. Abruptly, Jackie Chan cut off one of her leg with a katar.

She started screaming in pain. But the guy before triggered off the grenade and everything blew off. And I woke up.

The whole thing is just a dream. After the grenade blew off, I was awaken from that dream. Everything seemed so real, and I thought I was really watching the movie with Wei Xiang. (I don't know why it's him.) I could even remember everything they done in the movie precisely. It was a double layer dream. The first was me in the cinema; the second, I was in the movie circumstances. It's one of the coolest dream I ever had~

My journey

2010-11-26T22:06:00.001+08:00

26/11/2010

Yesterday night and today morning were one of the life-changing moment in my life.Perhaps the SPM's pressure and a mere ending of responsibility of a student have drive me to maturity. The reason I'm writing this is to be an evidence in the future. An evidence to my readers.Within the last 12 hours, I had thought what my life will be. I set my goal. This time, the seriousness in setting my goal isn't just a sense of ambitious; it's definite engagement for me to make it.

After SPM, I'll take journalism course! Within the period I'll struggle in hard works and learnings, I'll read a lot, and I'll write my feelings and the messages I want to remember. After I get my degree or either diploma, I'll rearrange that what I have wrote into a book. Purpose it to the printing and publishing company. From that point start, I'll be able to enjoy to see the changes. I'll go around Malaysia to give talk, making campaign, and promoting my book. I'm very confident that my book will go across great response. I want the readers to know the secrets in achieving, love, genuine virtues, and a sense of responsibility of one to contribute to the society.

Let's have a think. My enthusiasm was ignite by a book. If I read more within the time, my avid spirit will not fade off by time. If a book will be that infectious like a measles, what will happen if I write a book as a resident of Malaysia and encourage the society to read ? How hard is to make it happen ? It ain't too much for me. If a politician read my book, he will aware the carefulness in making decision; if a lawyer read my book, he will make better choices and pursue the sincere justice; if a doctor read my book, he will know the greatness as a life-savior; and if a teenager read my book, he will not know enough to be prudent, and so he will attempt the impossible, and achieve it, generation after generation.

The content of the book will fill with motivative stories, importance of love, andthe power of belief that sustains the journey! I will credit the people that inspire me. For instance, Michael Jackson, Lee Hom Wang, Albert Einstein, Stephen Hawking, Zig Ziglar, Seo Ju Hyun and many to come more. I will make my never met mentors have a greater sense of achievement; I will make my friends, family, nonsensical teachers and my future wife and son proud of me ! And of course making Malaysia proud of me ! I want all the Malaysians to have a similar spirit as mine! If they do have it, we Malaysians can reach the top!!

After writing great books, I will start studying directing course. I will make movies to inspire people. The genre of the movie can be sci-fi, motivative, or even love. If I got acknowledgement from all over the globe, the actors and actresses of the movies, I want the people that I admire.

A great man means one with great words, great infectious, great virtues, and great love. I have faith on what I to able to achieve. And if I'm given a wish, I'll not want prosperity in money nor fame; I want the world to be a better place with ceaseless peace and future.I know I can make it! It isn't that difficult!

3 days later,
I think I will get bored if I'm in journalism course ~ Hmmmm ~

Extraordinary

2010-11-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since the last time I wrote something on my blog. Today, I'm doing it and I'm pretty sure what am I gonna write will amaze you. Just look forward for it ~

First thing I have to say is, thank you to the people that changed me so much. Without them, I'm just merely a teenager with full of irresponsible, inattentive, demotivated, aimlessness. People I want to thank so much are the people who are so great that bring tremendous changes to me for my perspective in life. These people you should have know some of them. The first people I have to thank so badly is SNSD's Seohyun. She isn't just an elegant lady with great voice, musical talent and dancing skills, with a single statement of hers had changed my life completely. Wonder what she said that brought enormous changes on me ? All she said was, Buy and read more self-enrichment genre books. With her simple yet strong statement, I turned into a different person, and I hated so much what and how I was before this. The next person I want to gratitude is Zig Ziglar. He has a funny name indeed but he is a very person which has great influences that able to change your life thoroughly. Telling you that the secrets in life, the best perspective you should have, the most caring advice given ever. He is an author of many motivational books. He is one of the top America motivator. He is also known as motivators' motivator. He explains the troubles and obstacles that we often face in life and gives perfect solutions and advices or even perspectives onto the problems. In his book, every single quote, every single story, means so much. And even most of the Malaysians don't apply those in daily lives. He ignited the burning spirit in me and now I'm more enthusiasm in my life. The third person I want to thank is of course Lee Hom Wang, as usual. His latest album has lots of great songs and together with meaningful lyrics. As a true fans of LeeHom, I realized that since his 11th album 'Hero of Earth' till now '18 martial arts' are always containing Chinese's traditional musical instruments. He pays his duties consistently and persistently composing traditional musical to prevent the Chinese's culture lost in the future. And the rest of the people I want to thank so much are Stephen Hawking, Albert Einstein and lots of famous cosmologists and astronomers.

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The main reason I'm writing is to tell that how great that education able to change our future. What I say in the following might not be precisely correct (for the astronomy details) but trustworthy.

I'm not kidding here. Everyone of us should start reading a self-improvement genre book. The stories in it are from great people.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehpkfive2no&feature=share
The link above shows a story from my book. A quadriplegic which barely all of his muscle can't move. His name is Nick and he has a dad called Dick. The enthusiasm in them are incredibly strong. As a normal healthy man, we should have learn something from him. Something that might change your life. From the book, the story ends with a quote, Years wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. It just a story out of hundreds, if it reach your emotion, you are great.

There is also a concept that will amaze you. It is a concept to overcome depression. There are two books teach the way to fling away depression. One of them is so lame. I'm regretting buying such a book. But the other one is impressive. The concept starts with a story. One day, the author and his family packed up and wanted to go for a holiday trip. Due to the destination was too far away, they planned to get there by a train. When he and his family reached the train station, he saw there were many people there with a same purpose; to have a lovely holiday. He was then went to the station counter to purchase the train tickets for himself and his family as well. The staff was agitated and aggravated because of the crowd. The moment the author asked for the tickets, the staff replied his question with a harsh tone. The author was then giving a very short concept. He said, why are you so tensed ? Try to think that how much people out there are in the situation that are far more worser than yours, situation even you can't imagine how much they been through yet haven't giving up in hope. Right after the author finished his lines, the staff was then grinned widely even to be able to eat a banana sideway. The staff thanked the author so much that reminded him that his circumstances are so fortunate compared to people less fortunate.
Just a simple story that amazed me so much. From that day onwards, I had never defeated by depression that often as before.

Here are some motivative phrases which might help you a little.
-Don't ever say you're lost. You know where you from, and you know where you want to go. All you need is direction.
-Know who you are. So you won't be the one that people condemn.
-Act the one you want to be. Keep on acting on what and who you want to be until you made it.
-Don't quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion. Just keep on keeping on...

After reading, I will be able to recognize people with strong will, hight spiritual spirit, great aim and confirmation on people that will complete something great in life. When someone tries to give a motivative talk, just by listen to it, I will be able to know is he/she is the real deal or not. Our school counselor, whenever he talks, what he says are the things from the book, it's just in different language. Our history teacher in ET, he has also read these kind of books. Whenever he tries to say anything virtue, I will be able to know that it's from the books.

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Here, I'm gonna talk about the vastest chapter education can be, Astronomy.
To be real, by watching that much of documentaries, I have get into Astronomy so much. Thanks to it, it reconfirms me that God simply doesn't exist. Not to say I'm one which hate to be a disciple of God nor someone which try to be the God. I'm just simply don't believe perfection. As a free thinker, I'm aware that I can't wish for anything, because no one will grant me; I can't hope for anything, because I'm on my own; I can't pray for what I want; because I just don't believe just by praying, it might help; I do things all by myself, because God won't be there for me if I don't believe his existence. You basically have no idea how much it means to not believing a God. I can't make wishes !! And that has becomes my habit since I'm small. I have to always control my mentality, constantly telling myself I'm on my own, I made my decision. And I always convince myself that if I've made it, I'm better than anyone else, because I'm on my own.

You know what ? The motivational books at the introduction, written there, the bottom line of success is this: pleasing God. In everything you do, put God first, and he will direct you and crown your efforts with success. I don't really like it. So, I'll only apply those that is non-religious related righteousnesses in life.

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Big Bang Theory

2010-05-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

How the Earth is formed ? Sun, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune. . . How are they formed ? Cosmology explains everything.
It is all started by big bang.
There are two stages of big bang, before blow and after blow.
As we are now in is the after blow. It means after the explosion of the big bang. After blow of big bang created the universe, the unmeasurable size of universe.
However, before blow of the big bang, it is very small, even smaller than a sub-atom, e.g. electron. But it is incredibly dense. Because all of the enormous stars and planets were originally in the tiny ball before blow of the big bang.
What causes the big bang exploded is still a mystery.
After blow of the big bang as I said created everything. The everything can be summarized by the Periodic Table. Cosmologist said 74% of everything in universe is Hydrogen and Helium stands the second most. That is why if you do concerned, Hydrogen and Helium stand on the top of the Periodic Table.
Back to big bang theory, after blow of the big bang created the universe. And the universe is now continuing expending. Therefore, if we look back the time, it explains why the universe was small in the past. Someday, somehow, there might be a genius might be capable to calculate the age of our universe. Hundred billions? Trillions ? Or even trillion trillions years old. We can't give an assumption.

There is quite a number of people that brought out the theory of big bang.
The first was the people. The people in the old age believed that if God created Earth, then Earth must be the center of the galaxy. Unfortunately, they were wrong.
After that, here comes a man called Nicholas Copernicus. Before his ideal came out, he found out that if Earth is the center of the galaxy, planets around and the star are moving disorderly. Therefore, he started thinking and lastly, he came out he idea by putting the Sun as the center. He also claimed that even the Sun is not the center of our galaxy but it is just the center of our solar system. With his statement, it shows the correct order of the rotating of Mercury, Venus, Earth and other planets around the Sun simply just a round orbit. He had also discovered that our Earth rotates 24 hours for one complete round and Earth orbits the Sun for 365 days for a complete cycle. His contributions were amazing.
Galileo Galilei comes next. You might be familiar with his name, we read before him in our syllabus of history. He was the man who enhanced the telescope into 30 times more clearer than the older ones. With his constant staring on the sky, he saw the shape of the Saturn and for most he saw Venus went through phases like our moon, clearly reconfirmed that Venus orbits the Sun and the Sun is the center of our solar system. He was the first man saw the truths of the solar system. He was also the first man that discovered every object that falls will reach the ground at the same time. He tested that experiment on the Leaning Tower Of Pisa, the tallest building in his life time.
After Galileo, here comes Issac Newton. He was the man that changed the view of science in the history. His power of Mathematics explained everything, including gravity. He discovered gravity. He explained that every formation of things are came from gravity. A born of a star or planet is because of the pull of gravity, steps by steps, pulling gas and gas and changed into liquid and to solid later. He also reclaimed Galileo's discover of falling of object is due to gravity pull. He was the first that used Mathematics to prove not just experimenting or observing. That is why he changed the view of science in the history. He also said that why our planets orbit the sun in a good order is because of gravitational pull by the Sun. Besides, he came out law's of motion that explain why the planets orbit the Sun without stopping is because of inertia. His efforts had brought great changes in understanding the universe. Although he discovered gravity, but he never though how gravity is formed.
200 years later, Albert Einstein proved how gravity is formed. He said space and time are greatly related. If there are spaces, there will be time. He called it space-time. Space-time is like a fabric. If an object locate on a fabric, the area around the fabric will be curved downwards. That explained the gravity pull. If there is another object passing through space-time near the first object, it will be pulled into the first object because of the curved downwards space-time. The larger the object, the stronger the gravity pull.

Coutdown of Doomsday

2009-09-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

~ School work ~

In my world that I'm standing now , probably still a good place to live . But my sence told me , this won't be long . There are innumerous of disasters out there ruining people's harmony , there are uncountable of people who were actually out of their souls are hurting poeple's life . Consequently , I had never believe in the future .

There are millions of people suffering from natural disasters . Hurricanes , earth quakes , thunder storms , volcano irruptions , sand storms , avalanche , meteor strikes , tide attacks or even jungle burns are happening every time . All these , are something that we can never control nor prevent , once it strikes , we can only pray for more people's survival . Whenever I saw any news similar to these , I'm wondering why God makes us so ? Why does He makes us so difficult ? But I guess I have the answer right now , do you ? That is what God made for us , but there are something else are we make . Flood , acid rains , hail rains , landslides eventually some wave smashes are all man made consequences . All these phenomena are consecutions from may scientists' researches . Casually , these sort of natural phenomena collide together with man made activities . It is we that put ourselves in intricate , making things so complicated . Resulting with creating great amount choleric to human kinds . If we start to concern more about our environment , these won't be happening . For God sake , please start loving our lands before we lose it .

I hate to go to hospital , I hate to see people lying on bed waiting for lord to take them away . I hate to go to orphanage , I hate to see children craving hardly for love . I hate to go to old folk house , I hate to see old people that had been stunned in sorrow . I hate to go to the streets with beggars , I hate to see them demanding strongly for food or comfort . I hate to see people suffering deeply , because I can't help them . Do you ever realized , how a conflicted-one felt ? Abandoned old man or child , incurable patient , starving cadger , disaster victim . Do you ever realized , what will extinct next ? Clumsy polar bear , abundant seal , enormous whale , frenzy shark , innocent panda , wealthy elephant . Polar bears were suffering from landless ice which due from global warming . Seals were been hunted for the richness of fats . Whales were been net was because of Japanese luxurious menu . Sharks were been caught was because of Chinese's greediness of appetite . Pandas were losing their colony due to deforestation of bamboo plants . Elephants were been transformed into carcasses which trunks had been plucked off . Hatreds , endures , angers , obeys , underestimates , stresses , problems , demands , achieves , sorrows and suffers are the things we must go through in our lives , this is how we make ourselves in hardships , this is how we that put ourselves in harms way . We had turned kingdom to dust , we had changed wonderland into inferno , we had altered greens into blacks , we had modified nature fields into solid ceramic . Is that what we want ? As you are seeing now , should be appreciated , you will never know what is gonna happen tomorrow . Therefore , please chase after whatever the dreams and pledges that you had ever made before . Time does not wait , if unfortune happen tomorrow , only regrets are speaking . Treat your parents well , hold your lover tight , respect the olders , giving thoughtful helps to those who need . Make a perfect world before it ends .

Taggie

2009-09-28T00:26:00.000+08:00

if you're a guy- post this as my kind of girl..
if you're a girl- post it as my kind of boy..

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
• Of cause , must very CUTE !

2. Smart?
• No , must as dumb as possible , so I got a lot of chance to play with her & teach her ~

3. Preferred age?
• Younger than me , no other options !

4. Preferred height?
• Shorter than me , no doubt !

5. How about sense of humor?
• That is what men do ~

6. How about piercings?
• You mean eyes ah ? Ya ya ya XD , if not how could her be cute woh ?

7. Accepts you for who you are?
• Must ! And must be like me too XD

8. Pink hair?
• Ok ok , no problem ! I love PINK ! But don't too lala ~

9. Mushy or no?
• Yea yea must , that's what make sweet couple ^^

10. Thin or fat?
• Thin , but don't too thin please T_T I love her

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
• White XD Like snow white : )

12. Long hair or short hair?
• Long , must nice hair , special hair , don't want straight straight gehh ~

13. Plastic or metal?
• Apa plastic or metal ? Fake or real izzit ? What the hell is this asking about ?

14. Smells good?
• Yup , I'll buy her Guess de perfume ~ Hahax ^^

15. Smoker?
• HELL NO ! If yes , get lost !

16. Drinker?
• Only on special occasion .

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
• Ya , so we can meet often , if really got , my life is paradise man !

18. Muscular?
• No lahh , this question asking girl gehh lahh ~

19. Plays piano?
• Ya ya , I love it , XD

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
• Eeeee , both also don't sound nice , don't want better . . .

21. Plays violin?
• Yea XD , I WILL LOVE HER A LOT !

22. Sings very good?
• Ya , must XD , hehex ~

23. Vain?
• Wahhh , I don't even know this word , too be over concern on appearance (dictionary's help) Ya ya must , pretty pretty I baru like XD

24. With glasses?
• Nop , when study baru wear , ahhhh , then good XD

25. With braces?
• Izzit the thingy wear on hand waist ? Ya , of cause , why not ?

26. Shy type?
• Errr , ok ahh XD only looks cute mahhh

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
• Be like me can ad XD

28. Active or passive?
• Medium

29. Tight or bomb?
• Tight of cause or not want for what ?

30. Singer or dancer?
• Girl dance doesn't seems normal , even boy too , I think dance is for celebrities lahhh , we should not embarrass ourselves .

31. Stunner?
• Yea , must be , but don't attract too many of people please , except for me , hehex

32. Hiphop?
• Noooooooooooo ! Crazy ka ?

33. Earrings?
• She likes , she wears

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-boyfriends-unt
il-you-drop?
• Huh ? that mean a lot of ex ohh ? Of cause no lahh . . .

35. Dimples?
• OMG , her smile will kill me !

36. Bookworm?
• Not too often lohh XD

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
• Hahax , that will be sweet

38. Playful?
• Hahax , as long as I love her XD

39. Flirt?
• Of cause no , I know she won't

40. Poem writer?
• I write for her got lahh , but poem is so odd ! I'll try something better

41. Serious?
• No , don't take thing so serious please . . .

42. Campus crush?
• As long as I'm better

43. Painter?
• Girl draws ? Eeee , weird , don't want better

44. Religious?
• Nop

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
• No lahh , siao meh ?

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
• Like me hehex

47. Speaks 20 languages?
• Crazy ? World record fellow ah ?

48. Loyal or faithful?
• BOTH !

49. Good kisser?
• Rely on me XD

50. Loves children?
• Of cause , hehex , requirement to be a good mother lehh XD

Wah , banyak ini , this should be keeping with myself , since it asks , I have nothing to hide . . .
Please do this tag man !
It is fun XD , go do , go do ! Wanna know how good your taste really is . . . Woots !

Michael Jackson You Rock My World HD

2009-09-24T16:22:00.001+08:00

Let it load further first before start watching or not will be ruined . ^^

See Michael Jackson's moves !
WTF him ! WHY MUST HE DIE ? !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
See he so handsome , his dance , his voice !
OMG la , he will always be the best !!!!!!!!!!

My life , never be the same . . . Cause (Michael) came and changed , the way (you) walk , the way (you) talk , I cannot explain . . . Yeahh yeahhh !

Michael , you rock my world ! ! ! !
Woots !

Thanks to Heng show me this video XD

The Grand Finale

2009-09-14T21:02:00.001+08:00

This will ever be the last post on complaining teachers .
I started these perfectly and now I'm gonna end it marvelously .
First thing first ,
my regard to my most despised creature in the world ,
Puan Sia . . .
I am gonna fuck you hard always . . . Your kind , should be extinct from the world , for peace . . .
I will never stop hating you ! You bitch !
If you wanna talk to my mum , find your own way . . .
That day , you called me to call my mum come , but you disappear yourself . . .
My mum waited you for half an hour but you didn't visible yourself . . .
Ended up with my mum ran away . . .
She was so mad at you . . . I'm so glad that she was mad at you . . . Hahax , it meant a lot for me xD
She said where got people like this ? Call people come but you are not here , why not you don't make the request in the first place . . .
ROFLMFAO !
Hear that ? Puan Sia , she was referring to you , bitch !
So if you still don't wanna giving up finding her to talk with you , get yourself a way ya , call her also never mind . . . But if you trying to make a fool with her , you are gonna eat my fist !

Secondly , to all those teachers out there . . .
This might be the last note of teaching you these freaky morons how to be a true teacher . . .
For all the fails in being a good teacher are all caused by the only one reason ,
you can't teach well . . .
You might be a professional in those subjects and I can say it is a waste that you didn't further your studies until the maximum , but you are not suitable to be a teacher . . .
You can be a doctor , engineer , pharmacist and whatever , but never a teacher please . . .
You don't even know how to teach well . . .
I wonder do you really wanted to be a teacher when you are choosing your course . . .
I can say almost 70% of teachers do not want to be a teacher at the start , they were forced to be . . .
It is either financial problems or your academic problems , which one ? God knows . . .

We are being so terribly behaved were all caused by you , teachers . . .
If you can teach well , there is no reason we don't concentrate in the class . . .
If you can teach well , there is no reason we don't do your homework . . .
If you can teach well , there is no reason we don't respect you . . .
If you can teach well , there is no reason for us to make noise in the class . . .
If you can teach well , there is no reason for us to hate you . . .
Don't believe ?
Look at Puan Bibi , while she is teaching , I seldom talk . . . Neither my friends . . .
I always try my best to stay fully focus on teacher although it is hard because she is teaching History . . .
But at least I tried , no matter how tired am I , I force myself to open my eyes as big as possible . . .
You know why I make myself so difficult ?
Very easy , with a present of one simple thing ,
what is it ?
Because she can teach well . As simple as that . . .
Not just Puan Bibi , even Puan Ngai and Puan Lee . . .
They are good teachers . They taught us very well . . .
Unlike the others , Encik Lau , Encik Amakamal , Puan Yap , Puan Diana bla bla bla . . .
Do they know how to teach ?
OMFG , hell no man . . .
You all come in know how to scold only .
Never mind , let you scold , release your anger , go ahead . . .
Scold scold scold ,
until those freaky words come out . . .
LMAO !

Today Puan Yap just gave us a doltish shits . . .
How stupid was that . . .
Saying I'm wrong ?
Take your piss off , ok ?
Who am I ?
Tell me , who am I ?
Non other the enigmatic wanxiang . . .
You want me to change ?
Why not you change yourself in the first place . . .
I love being myself , what's wrong with that , huh ?
The way you talk to us will never be helpful , unfortunately , more worst . . .
I don't like you , you don't even understand your students . . .
Bla bla bla , eat shit la . . .

Sometime your scold is really getting the point , but I don't like the manner you present the message . . . Nevertheless you are right . . . Why not you speak with a proper manner , don't be so psycho . . .

Talking about psycho ,
I just saw one today . . .
Encik Amakamal . . .
I don't know why are you being so retard today . . .
You even scold us stupid , what the fuck ?
Mind your language man . . . You are a teacher , come on ~
You can't teach well yet you are being like psycho . . .
What a mentally handicap . . .

And please , don't ever bring your emotions from your house to the school . . .
You're not happy , you can't satisfy yourself , please don't put the blame on us , ok ?
We are innocent , too naive to understand your situation that you are in , except for me . . . Hahax . . .

And all the teachers like to say this , if you not happy with the school , go find a school in Malaysia that you like . . .

o0o

FUCKERS , do teachers say that ?
Tell me ?! Do they ?!
Hell no man ! Always when come to an end , they will always say this . . .
Fuck off man ! Bull shit !
Feeling like wanna hold my fist tight and whack on your face !
Not just once , I wanna use my full strength , punch all our face !
This is bull shit ! I can't understand why this world having so many failures !
THEY CAN'T EVEN THINK !
FUCK OFF FROM THIS WORLD , MAN !
WE DON'T NEED YOU !
FUCK OFF , YOU MORON !

No matter what ,
if you can teach well , there is no point for us to against you .
Clear with that ?
So make yourself better ya . . .
And all these are nothing personal , just telling for fun , except the freaky dolt , o0o , Puan Sia . . .

Dedicated to Pn. Sia o0o

2009-09-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

Today , as early I woke up , it was 5.45 a.m. showing on my phone . . .
I dare not to put my feet on the ground because I am afraid of going to the bath room .
Therefore , I use my phone to call my mum to wake my mother up .
I called a few times but she didn't wake up , I was terribly frightening . . .
My brain was like showing all the scary pictures one by one with high speed . . .
At last , my mum woke up , she came and switch on the stairs' light . . .
Then I only dare to leave my bed . . .
This is the main reason why I came late today . . .

After all the preparations , including facing the mirror about 10 minutes to style up my hair .
I always tell myself , I prefer being late than being early who was unprepared .
Then I walked down and take my breakfast . . .
Although that time was already 7.15 , but I didn't skip my breakfast , because I understand why must we being so hurry in rushing to the stupid school but until the end we are actually putting ourselves in a risk to have an ailment ? Therefore , I drank my milk and have a piece of bread slowly .
There is no need to worry about in my house . . .

Not until I reach the school . . .
Looking on students came to school late . . .
Disallowed to enter the school . . .
I told my mum , wow , the stupid teachers are doing stupid things again , I wonder can I get in there . . .
She said , if anything happened , just call me . . .
I leave the car and go stand in front of the gate like an idiot watching the time pass by like no body business . . .
The teachers there were actually in berserk . . .
Talking loudly like a psycho , scolding the students . . .
Until my turn , my emotional was actually reaching the stage of uncontrollable . . .
The teachers keep judging on me . . .
Words followed by words , my anger increase level by level . . .
Until it beyond the limit , I said this with a bad tone ,
STOP JUDGING AND START UNDERSTAND YOUR STUDENTS !
You know what she says after me ?
She said , you are right . . .
Is she out of her mind ? She said yes , but she is still doing the same thing .
They continue ask , why must you make your hair like this ,
why can't you just follow the rules ?
They said why not you find a school in Malaysia that allows you to have these kind of hair . . .
They said you don't be not happy with the school , it is government fixed the rules , we are just here to do our jobs . . .
Haiz , I really have no strength to talk with a teacher who actually don't like to use her brain . . .
Why are you keep on asking ?
Why can't you stop talking and start listening ?
Why can't you ?
I am really really sad with these teachers . . .
They always want us to be what they want us to be .
Why not you be that what we want you to be ?
Huh ?
You all always think of yourself , your career . . .
But when you ever have actually sit down and think how a student felt ?
We students are no longer like a kids who can't think wise . . .
Please , just ignore the rules ,
codes are death , brain is living . . .
Some rules are actually make no sense . . .
Haiz , why can't you just ignore one of the rules out of hundreds ?

I love my being myself . . .
I scream to regain my joys ,
I scold to release my angers ,
I laugh to share my happiness . . .
If you are stopped to do something you like , how would you feel ?
As an example , you are not allow to read any book in the school , but you love reading books ,
how will you react ?
Disagree with it and ignore it , just continue reading . . .
Right ?
Lets change the example back to me , you are not allow to have long hairs in the school . . .
But I love myself with my hair ,
I am just reacting that what should I actually react . . .
I disagree with it , I ignore it and just continue having long hair . . .
Whats wrong with it ?
Am I wrong to stand and defend my like ?

Why can't you think in my way ?
I am just doing something I really like .
I am just making myself happy .
I am just trying to change myself into better appearance .
I am just being myself . . .
What's wrong with it ?

I actually understand I am wrong . . .
And I actually understand hair short is more neat to see . . .
But I like to be myself !
I am living for myself !
Not for you !
Why must I listen on something that actually no harms in not following ?
You get what I mean ?

I tell you , if I am teacher and I'm having a student like myself now ,
I will not stop him . . .
Because he is special , he is not those crazy guys with crazy hairs . . .
It is just he is a unique guy with a crazy hair . . .
Therefore , I respect his like and for more , I will give support in it . . .
Doesn't is sound good ? Huh ?
It is good for you , it is good for me . . .
Both of us lost nothing but we gain extra . . .
This is the way you teachers should actually do . . .

Come on man , just let me be !
Just let me be !
Let me be myself , I don't want to be forced to do something I actually dislike . . .
This is no different than torturing . . .
If you continue , you are actually making me hard !
Do you know , a criminal is being a criminal is because he or she had been crime before ! That's why they are being a criminal !
If you continue , next time I might be a criminal too . . . The real people who ruin my life is not actually myself , is the one who actually stop my freedom . . .
Do you get what I mean ?
Maybe I can't explain it well , but I watched before a movie about how a group of student defend their wants from the teacher . . .

See , am I giving a lecture ?
I told you I am different .
And you know that I am different , but why are you making so many trouble on me ?
You have actually made me don't like to wear a tie indirectly . . .
I use to be wearing a green tie , I am happy with my tie always . . .
Naib Setiausaha Pengawas SPBT . . .
For years of serving , you just ended up it without thinking much .
Do you know how much I hate you more ?
Do you know how much I want you die ?
Do you know how much I want all of your family did not go well ?
Do you know how much I love being a Pengawas ?
You don't understand me , without any further words , you ended up my spree ?
Do you respect me ?
Tell me DO YOU !?
I will never forget what you did to me !
I will never forgive any shit that judge on me !
I will make sure next time I have the power , I want you to struggle in sorrows !
All of you that ever give any shits on me , you will be repay !
You definitely will ~ With no escape . . .
Mark my words . . .
This is the consequences of finding the wrong man to judge with !

Once again , if you able to do the same thing as what I did , please do it . . .
Write a long letter , a beautiful latter with strong words . . .
Making me realize I'm wrong , I might change . . .
But if you can't , take your weight off me !

I'm telling you

2009-09-09T13:33:00.000+08:00

You wanna know why I want my hair to be long ?
I'm telling you now !
Consequences without hair on me :
1) I will lose enormous of confidences
2) I will hate myself
3) I will hate my life
4) I will not have much friends
5) Despair in my future
6) Losing meaning of continue living
7) Losing aims
8) Being totally unsocial
9) Unable to wear fancy cloths
10) Difficult in finding new friends
11) Having less out going activities
12) Being over humble
13) Being over fearful in any new things
14) Disappointed on myself
15) Hating everyone around me
16) Strong jealousy on good looking people
17) Receive unwelcome bad comments
18) Stunned in sorrows
19) Giving up in life
20) Fulfilled with ton of hatreds !

I sometime really don't understand why teacher can't understand us .
I understand teachers .
I know they are just doing their works .
I know they want us to be neat , accepted in future .
But why must you being so serious ?
Why can't you just ignore ?
Why can't you just pretend you didn't see anything ?
Why can't you feel how your student felt ?
WHY CAN'T YOU ?
WHY CAN'T YOU ? ?
WHY CAN'T YOU ? ? ?
WHY CAN'T YOU ? ? ? ?
WHY CAN'T YOU ? ? ? ? ?
Do you know all the students now days are hating teacher so deeply ?
Do you know without unnecessary rules we can be very good ?
Do you know if you stop talking and start listening you will understand more ?
Do you know if you give us some freedom , we might be more outstanding ?
Do you know your students well ?

WHY MUST YOU ALL KEEP FOLLOWING RULES !
WHY ? TELL ME WHY ! o0o
I don't want to use those words , I really don't want .
But your actions had made me used !
YOU FUCKING HANDICAP !

You all are always trapped in Malaysia's scene , why can't you look at other countries ?
Do those countries set these fucking rules ?
I know telling these to you are totally equal to useless .
I told you that , what you replied me ?
You said why not you go find a school in Malaysia that allows you to have a hair like this .
You said why not you go fight with the government .
WTHHH , do you have a brain ? You was like giving up guiding , do a teacher do this ?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DAMN FUCK ! ! !
HOW CAN I LIVE WITH TEACHER WHO WAS ACTUALLY HANDICAP ?
God damn it , I'm not referring to Yunus , not Antong but only you Pn. SIA !
You bitchy ! The way you talk with me are making terribly wanna whack you !
You talk , you talk . . . Please have the right tone with me !
Or not , FUCK OFF !
I salute other teacher than you at least they are slightly more communicable !
Unlike you , whenever I saw your fugly face , made my blood stream flowing thousands mach per hour !
YOU INSANE MORON , TAKE YOUR PISS OFF FROM ME o0o

And Pn. Alijah , please mind your words . You always make Berlian and Baiduri the hope , others , YOU DECRIED THEM ! This is the way you being a teacher ? Do you know what it mean as respect ? You don't even respect student yet you want us to respect you ? You will never know how many students were talking bad on you , you never know how you look down on others . And blogging is our freedom , you have no right to control what am I gonna write and I never mention our school name , what are you worry about huh ? FUCKING BITCH ! TAKE YOUR WEIGHT OFF ME ! I like to defame as much as I like , sorry for disappoint you , RETARD !

You should be proud having a unique student in your school , you should be thankful to god !
I had told my school name times before after I did something great .
I spoke before with an inspector , he said I can speak well , and he asked where am I study at ?
Haa , now I regret . . . For all criticizes on me yet I'm still promoting this psycho school , now , I bet it , I will defame my school as strong as possible if anyone ask about it !
100% guarantee confirmed !

ALL OF YOU INSANE PSYCHO MENTALLY RETARDED SLUTIE BITCH , craving SMK Batu Unjur to be the model school in Klang ?
NEVER DREAM OF MAN !
The real model school will not chase after the status , until they achieved that every student in it are beloved with teachers' care , they will automatically declared as the model school !
Unlike you these bitches , do what ever it takes to achieve that declare .
This is why human being are so stupid !
Chasing after unnecessary fame , BULL SHIT !

You know I'm special , so , don't touch me ! I know myself , and I don't need your highly DOLTISH guides !

Movies

2009-09-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

Wow , I watch a lot of movies this few weeks . . .
First was the G.I Joe .
LOLX , I was like a freak , keep wow here wow there , sohai betul . . .
Damn cool man . . . Especially the suit , OMFG !
Rax and Rip wear it . . . OMG man , he run like flash yet it looks so realistic . . . And jump and they dodge the missile , WOOTS , roxx maxx ! !
Second was the Think That .
lolx , it was funny , and I understand more about America , man , America is the best place for staying . Their school , their everything was so nicely ordered . . . Really , I am not talking craps . Japan just nice at the out side , but it is not so good in the inside . . . Unlike America . . .
Third was Orphan .
Ewwww , creepy . . . First time I been scared by children's laughter . . . OMG scary max . . .
But now think back it was like nothing to scare , it is just you are frighting yourself . . . LOLX ! I keep scold that orphan , you bitch , you bitch , you bitch ! When she gonna kill anyone I spamming OMFG ! lolx , not very loud la , like whispering to myself only , lolx , damn kanchiong , bitchy orphan . . . Creepy xXxx_xxXxx I can't forget how she whack one people . . . Damn cruel , damn violence , take hammer , whack eyes , OMFG man , no words able to describe . . . Too bad , the husband die , if I'm not wrong is call John . Kate , Daniel , Max , the orphan call Esther . . . Max was another quiet cute girl , she is deaf , and she saved her brother , Daniel . . . And and and , when the movie says What The Fuck , lolx the whole cinema laugh , lolx , so stupid , they laugh I also follow laugh , hahax ~
The story was very great , if you are dare enough must watch it , very scary + kanchiong ! Eeeeee , now think back and recap on it suddenly scare back jor . . . Cause I'm alone in house , scary xxx !
Fourth was the Final Destination .
OMG la , is that for kidz ? Damn fake lohh , cut body like cutting jelly . . . The organs were so fake . . . I tod that will be very scary , but it is NOTHING ! ! ! Damn disappointed ! At last all also die , talk craps nia , lame movie , stupid maxx !

Woots , watching movies were so fun , lolx , watch those 18 and above de movies always say What the fuck ! You bitch ! You pussy ! You moron ! A lot lahhh ~ LOLX , the way they scold was so cool , aiiks , too bad , Malaysia you can't scold like this . Say nia people will look at you . . . Haiz , can't think open de sohai people . . . It just a word , come on , what's wrong saying about it ? Even movies also showing ad , still say this say that , no manners this no manners there . . . The real no manners are those manners that you never obey before . . . Still talk big , Zzz , look at yourself first lahh ~
And they love their god a lot man , American . . . Anything happened , holy shit , oh my god , Jesus Christ , holiness . . . LOLX , I love saying those . . . Except for Jesus Christ , cause I'm not christian . . . But I love listening on those people reading bible . . . It meant a lot ~

Among the movies , I was totally agree with the orphan about pains . If someone is in pain that is incurable , can say as wait die . We should end their lives . Sometimes continue surviving is not not best option when come together with suffers . Why must we suffer yet we are still die in the end ? Can't we just die earlier ? So next time if kena HIV or cancer , after having all the happy moments , you should suicide , I know it is hard , but it is good . Sound creepy , I can even imagine that . . .

Last words ,

I LOVE MOVIES A LOT ! ! !

They raise me up !

Doomsday

2009-08-28T14:26:00.000+08:00

I hate to go to hospital ,
I hate to see people lying on bed waiting for lord to take them away .
I hate to go to orphanage ,
I hate to see children craving hardly for love .
I hate to go to old folk house ,
I hate to see old people that had been stunned in sorrow .
I hate to go to the streets with beggars ,
I hate to see them demanding strongly for food or comfort .
I hate to see people suffering deeply ,
because I can't help them .

I hate this world ,
why is it so unfair to them ?
I hate this world ,
why must we drudgery for goods ?
I hate this world ,
why are there so many disasters ruining their harmonies ?
I hate this world ,
why are there deviled people cracking people's heart ?

Do you ever realized ,
how a conflicted-one felt ?
Abandoned old man or child , incurable patient , starving cadger , disaster victim . . .
Do you ever realized ,
what will extinct next ?
Clumsy polar bear , abundant seal , enormous whale , frenzy shark , innocent panda , wealthy elephant . . .
Polar bears were suffering from landless ice which due from global warming . . .
Seals were been hunted for the richness of fats . . .
Whales were been net was because of Japanese luxurious menu . . .
Sharks were been caught was because of Chinese's greediness of appetite . . .
Pandas were losing their colony due to deforestation of bamboo plants . . .
Elephants were been transformed into carcasses which trunks had been plucked off . . .

We had turned kingdom to dust ,
we had changed wonderland into inferno ,
we had altered greens into blacks ,
we had modified nature fields into solid ceramic .

I hope sun flare can wipe out our earth ,
I hope cyclone can twist and crush out everything ,
I hope meteor rains strike all around the lands ,
I hope earth crust cracks and everything fall into the core ,
and leaving nothing behind ,
but an opportunity for new lives . . .

Words are learnt from documentary records ( BBC Natures most amazing events ) .
Have 6 episodes , > The great melt
> The great salmon run
> The great migration
> The great tide
> The great flood
> The great feast
These are hard works of discoverers , zoologists , pathologists and marine studies professionals .

Lee Hom - Finally

2009-08-24T01:58:00.001+08:00

This is the first song that ever made me cried
The second was 两个人并不等于我们

明知留不住更不想结束
努力记住你此刻的眉目记住这拥抱的温度
对抗快来临的孤独为什么幸福它总是仓促
不在乎付出因为我在乎但让你哭我就无可宽恕
年轻的我们太低估世界该有的冷酷太多的爱也没帮助
my finally 一个也是有吻 finally
我最终的恋人别哭泣
用力用力忘你在哪里我的心中不曾离开你永远的当我想起你会得到爱的离奇
我要退出也为你祝福别为我哭我会嫁给无助
年轻的我们太低估世界该有的冷酷太多的爱也没帮助
my finally 一个也是有吻 finally
我最终的恋人别哭泣
用力用力忘你在哪里我的心中不曾离开你永远的当我想起你会得到爱的离奇
忘记一步一切就荒芜希望爱复燃吧!my finally 一个也是有吻 finally
我最终的恋人别哭泣
用力用力忘你在哪里我的心中不曾离开你永远的当我想起你会得到爱的离奇

Medication ?

2009-08-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

lolx , due to unwelcome disease , H1N1 , I went to clinic just now .
Waited so long there . Unexpected , a clinic at a time of now having around 4 patients .
Wow , after 7 years of hardship of studying , it really brings benefits in the sense of $_$ .
Hahax . . .

Actually , I have being coughing for a month , I guess .
I don't really know la , first thing , my body seldom stay perfect in a week . It is either out of 7 days , 5 days I'm fine , another 2 days I might having some sort of discomfort . My body is weak , seriously weak . Always I said that my body is strong , now I realized and I admit , my body is weak . I started to coughing for around a month ago , it is just an estimation , I guess it is beyond one month . When the doctor ask , how long have you been coughing , I say it with shy along . LOLX , you have been coughing for a month , now you only come to see me ? Hahax , I remain speechless . Hard to explain . As always , I cough without realizing much , but I sneeze for the past 16 years , it had be a friend to me , growing up with me in my body until now . Hahax .
Sometimes I might even feel I having low blood pressure . When I stand up sometime , I was like stunned , having a blur vision , and my hand holding on something stable to stablize myself down . I think this is very common to everyone right ? I think too much jor . . . LMAO

The condition getting more shy when the doctor was sensing my blood flow on my wrist , he saw something growing on my hand .
I thought the thingy is cause by today after bath , I have no shirt in the bathroom , so I cover myself with the cloth I wore back then , who knows it grow something dirty . lolx , actually I was shock when I saw something on my skin . But actually , it was not cause by the cloth , the doctor say it was because my illness . These 2 have connections . Swt . . . And then doctor attacked with another one : yet you still not willing to tell this . Zzz , OMG man , speechless . . .
After some conversation , I began briefly explain what happened lohh . Blah , blah , blah . It is interesting also , I love to talk with professionals ~ Because they are professionals ~ xD

Before leaving , I looked on the date of my last visit to the doctor , it was 2006 . OMG , how long was that . . . Hahax , now I realized how important is date really is , it is not because it act as an record , it is act as a recall of what happened in the time passed . Something is really matter that brings changes , big changes , all was written in the numbers represting the dates . Hold the time tight with you , don't ever let it slips away like nobody business .

I'm fine de , just a stupid unnesessary visit to the doctor , but it is worthful . Hahax , stop here , the medi like not functioning , I haven't felt sleepy yet gehh ? Weird . . .

Take care everyone , body health is really important to us . Not until you lost it you will never realize how valuable was it . I am a past comer , mark my words . Treasure your body .

Nightzx . . .

Michael Jackson - Earth song

2009-07-23T18:47:00.001+08:00

What about sunrise
What about rain
What about all the things
That you said we were to gain.. .
What about killing fields
Is there a time
What about all the things
That you said was yours and mine...
Did you ever stop to notice
All the blood we've shed before
Did you ever stop to notice
The crying Earth the weeping shores?

Aaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaah

What have we done to the world
Look what we've done
What about all the peace
That you pledge your only son...
What about flowering fields
Is there a time
What about all the dreams
That you said was yours and mine...
Did you ever stop to notice
All the children dead from war
Did you ever stop to notice
The crying Earth the weeping shores

Aaaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaaah

I used to dream
I used to glance beyond the stars
Now I don't know where we are
Although I know we've drifted far

Aaaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaaaah

Hey, what about yesterday (What about us) ,What about the seas (What about us) ,The heavens are falling down (What about us),I can't even breathe (What about us), What about the bleeding Earth (What about us), Can't we feel its wounds (What about us), What about nature's worth (ooo,ooo), It's our planet's womb (What about us), What about animals (What about it), We've turned kingdoms to dust (What about us), What about elephants (What about us), Have we lost their trust (What about us), What about crying whales (What about us), We're ravaging the seas (What about us), What about forest trails (ooo, ooo), Burnt despite our pleas (What about us), What about the holy land (What about it), Torn apart by creed (What about us), What about the common man (What about us), Can't we set him free (What about us), What about children dying (What about us), Can't you hear them cry (What about us), Where did we go wrong (ooo, ooo) , Someone tell me why (What about us), What about babies (What about it), What about the days (What about us), What about all their joy (What about us), What about the man (What about us), What about the crying man (What about us), What about Abraham (What was us), What about death again (ooo, ooo) . . .
Do we give a damn

Do you feel the song ?
How much Michael wanted to change the world !! FUCK HUMAN BEING !!!!

- Fuck The World -

2009-07-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

Are you being tired with hatreds ?
Are you being tired with endures ?
Are you being tired with angers ?
Are you being tired with obeys ?
Are you being tired with underestimates ?
Are you being tired with stresses ?
Are you being tired with problems ?
Are you being tired with demands ?
Are you being tired with achieves ?
Are you being tired with sorrows ?
Are you being tired with suffers ?
Are you being tired with the world ?

God damn it . I wonder why the god abandon our world ?
Is it we are hopeless ?
Exactly . Our world is hopeless , despairing . . .
What are peoples doing now ?
Where are the primeval lifestyle ?
Why must the world changed into so intricate ?
How can I survive in a world like this ?

Authorities had misused , and I should say that it should not exist authority .
Society is making people so stupid .
Why must people study ?
Why must people work ?
Why must people classified ?
Why must people having jealousy ?
Why must people crave for fame ?
Why must people being so greedy ?
Why must people chasing after aims ?
Why must people being so complicated ?

I want peaces .
I want paradises .
I want simplicities .
I want wilds .
I want greens .
I want relaxations .
I want lives thousands B.C. ago !
The mother nature give our world perfectly .
Why must be human being change the mother nature ?
INSANE ! Humans are INSANE !
Smartest animal of all . Is it really good ?
For all changes , now come with consequences .
People dies ,
people drudgery ,
people fights ,
people splits ,
PEOPLE SUFFERS !

Come on man , scream out loud ,

- !! FUCK THE WORLD !! -

I hate this world .
I understand
nothing is perfect , therefore nothing is perfect .
Do you get what i mean ? It mean what it meant .

========================================

All of that is just a warm up .
Now I get started .
Fuck you bitch , fuck you Pn. Sia !!!
FUCK YOU !!!!!!!!!!
I am tired of putting my angers down .
I am tired of controlling myself .
I am tired of schooling .
I am tired with obeying unreasonable rules !!
Fuck you Pn. Sia , are you having nothing to do ?
Wasting effort on worthless toil ?
Come on man , do you ever have a brain before ?
Or I should say you don't know how a brain functions ?
Or even I have been doubting , are you a thinking handicap ?

ROFLMFAO
~~ ROLL ON FLOOR LAUGH MY FUCKING ASS OUT ~~

Oops sorry , should not saying that I doubt , I should say you are confirmed as a thinking handicap !! ROFLMFAO !!!!!!!
I am really waiting the day you come to talk with me .
I have been waiting .

Do you ever know how to be a teacher ?
Do you ever understand your students before ?
Do you ever respect students' opinions ?
Do you ever accept students' comments ?
But something for sure , you ever make judgment .
Ok , you made it correctly sometimes but you made irrational judgment more frequently .
Why not you put your strain on some where else ? Your family , especially your husband . He sure can't stand you any longer more . LMAO !!!
You take my imitation , you put all of your excessive demands on those really bad students , not on me . Those who break the fucking toilet , those who skip school and found out playing in cyber cafe , those who fight with illogical reasons . You should take care them more rather on me ~
Talking about me , I late to school is all caused by you .
Do you ever hear before something sounds :
whenever you make a lie , you are needed to make another lie to cover the first lie you made .
What I really wanna say is the reason I being late is because to avoid from those self-called ''cut hair ceremonies'' ! LMAO !! And what ever I do I told my mum , my mum let me do it that mean I am not wrong .
Mum come first , you come last . Cause you meant nothing in my life .

Seriously , what is wrong about hair ?
It is just a decoration to build up self-confident . Everyone need it , don't tell me you don't need to face the mirror and make your appearance better (no matter how you make you are still remain FUGLY ) before leaving your fucking house . Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuull shits la you idiot doing idiot things . Tak ada otak , buuuuuuuuuuuuuuull shits ada dalamnya je .

And how dare you harass Pn. Ong ?
I AM GONNA FUCK YOU HARD !!!!
Do you wanna make a comparison between you and her ?
I guess no need , people had already have a clear calculation .
Wanna know why ? Cause you are SUCKS !!!!
BULL SHITS !!!
Do you know how much I love to be a pengawas SPBT ?
I can say without me in there , there will no more cheer along works .
Take my strong advice just remember to always think twice , cause you didn't , lapsap idiot , fucking failure but yet still being like a prostitute .

Not just Pn Sia , so to other teachers as well .
Who ever had just judge me . YOU ALL ARE MOTHER FUCKING SLUTIE BITCH , IF YOU WANNA JUDGE ANYONE , PLEASE FACE THE FUCKING MIRROR AND ASK WHO THE ONE ARE YOU JUDGING ON ? IT IS REASONABLE OR NOT ? AND KEEP YOUR FURTHER INSULT FOR YOUR MAMA , SHE WILL BE SAD OF HAVING THIS KIND OF CHILD . DON'T EVER JUDGE PEOPLE , YOU ARE NOT PERFECT , THEREFORE YOU DID NOT STAND A CHANCE TO JUDGE . THAT IS GOD'S JOB , DON'T EVER TRY TO BE SOMEONE YOU CAN'T BE !!! YOU AIN'T GOD !!! BUT BULL'S SHITS !!!

FUCK YOU !!!!! MAKE ME NO MORE SPBT !!!!!! HOW LOYAL AM I BUT IT END UP WITH FUCKING OCCURRENCE !!!!!

~ FUCKING INSANE ABNORMAL RETARDED WHORE ~
o0o

Fixing

2009-07-08T16:43:00.001+08:00

Come on come on ,
Pn Ngai , Mr Yunus , Pn Sia and the fugly Mr Antong ,
please , I am begging you , PLEASE use your brain .
I know you all are good guys , but it is just unfortunately you all had been wrongly taught .
Taught by whom ?
Let me tell you , it is your career , your environment , your surrounding , your ordered task , is your demanded of obeying codes .
I am very sorry all the happening on you , by right , you all should be a beloved person , but by affected from your life style , your true personality had been ruined .
Ok , you all are teachers , giving knowledge to the younger ones , guide them to the right side , avoiding to been influented by bad things . That is what teacher really do .
But , what are the fucking things are you all fucking about now ? HUH ? Bunch of mother fucker slutie bitch , do you all ever use your fucking brain to think ? HUH ?
You always say you are a dad for us , you will cry for us , you will sad for us , but in the end , YOU NEVER UNDERSTAND US ! NEVER BEFORE ! If you are really a dad of us , you are a huge big disaster of insult for our real dad ! TALKING COCK , you will ever the best ! No one will beat you . ( Mr Yunus )
You , your class , your lesson , I had never complain on it . You are a good teacher , seriously good , but there is just a point you didn't get well , just a point . So please , use your brain and think , what's wrong with hairs ? Please tell me , WHAT IS WRONG ABOUT IT ? GOD DAMN YOU ! Damn it , you make me fucked up , seriously ! You make me fucked up , I am gonna make you get into the same situation . I get fucked up , so do you . You think your volume can beat me ? You think your size can fears me ? DON'T GIVE SHITS ON IT ! IDIOT ! ( Pn Ngai )
You , thought you are sitting on a throne . Saying words that indirectly hurt us . YOU THINK YOU ARE THE ONE , HUH ? TAKE YOUR PISS OFF ! You are nothing , valueless , priceless in the sense of worthless , in other word , rubbish . You think you really can speak ? Come on man , look who are you talking with ? The enigmatic wanxiang , I guess the word enigmatic is needing a dictionary for you , make your self more sophisticated before you make any shits . ( Pn Sia )
No words for FUGLY Mr Antong , first place I don't even know how to spell your name . You have never stand on stage to say anything before , this have proven that you have no confidence ! That why , you are being a fucking failure ! ( Mr Antong )
All of you with a tiny wrong concept had linked me to saying you from a good person to a MOTHER FUCKER SLUTIE BITCH ! You all are just failing like a whore does .
I am a vegetarian , I clearly know about right or wrong , black sheep or white angel . I never kill an animal before , this prove that I am having inspirited way of thinking . What I did is always right , even though I did wrong , I will know what I did for what purpose , what reason . And now you are saying shits about hairs , come on man , WHAT IS THE FUCKING WRONG WITH IT ? Damn it , it is just a decoration to build up self confident , is it wrong ? I should be the medium of the world taking me as an example . Making everyone having the same brain that I have , the world is gonna be perfect , no unmatched meditation , but all with same intimation .
If it is really wrong , the whole world should be agree with it , but it is not . I can say only this fucking country doing this fucking thing . This land is SUCKS . Lets look about America , Japan , Taiwan , those highly facilitated and successful country is not doing this in their school . They don't even destroy the toilet as our school idiots made . They all are highly salute in teachers unlike us . You know why ? Because the teacher there are much more better , professional than you do . Their country social , environment , life style , culture will never make them to do any wrong things . This is the major reason why our country didn't success just like our other country did . A FUCKING SYSTEM IN SCHOOL ! Did you think that gantung from school can make us a lesson ? It makes worst ok . Use your brain and think !!!
I HAVE BEEN DOUBTING , DO TEACHERS HAVING THEIR BRAINS !?
I am gonna migrate after the days I succeed .
I will make sure my son is not gonna suffer in this land .
I will only listen to highly educated professional's talks . But not all of you , these bull shits !
My meditation will never goes wrong , only yours will approach to the wrong side .
That is why I am saying , humanity is no longer approaching to the right side . By doing a small wrong , it is not really wrong , but it will cause a bigger conflict of wrong . Like what am I doing now !!

Please , you all are good , codes are death , brain is living . Dear idiots , please use your fucking brain to think , please , I am begging you . If you are not satisfy with me , you are unhappy of my defaming , come and fuck me down . Bring no fear to face you .

Dear readers , please try me to get this lecture to that 4 teachers even for all the school . I want them know , what we feel !!! I am just trying to fix them , by words !

Self-Promise

2009-06-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

~ Bringing up older post ~

Hahax , as you know , I'm not so serious in this exam .
The only one who fails his subject but still laughing , takes no doubt , surely is me ! The very one who say , don't worry lahh , nothing one , make sure next time get better results can ad ! Hahax , what a professional adviser am I ~

Holiness , I wanna say something about my moral paper .
At the essay there , I wrote this , I can say , the only essay I can write so freely , without thinking much , and ended up writing so good ^^ I am proud of my writing skills ~ Muahahax
The content sounds like this :

It had been so long since my last serious . I am here to apologize for my failure . Lately , I had been inserted with high amount of laziness and uncountable of fails . But all these will be fixed before the year end exam , I promise , you take my words .

I felt so guilty to teachers and my family . I will explain to my family and swear for the greater good results in the future . Similar to the teachers . If Mr. Nicholas is reading this , I give you my words , I will guarantee A1 in the year end exam .

I had been wondering , why am I so lazy to study ? I am not that stupid , I can be perfect . If I get serious and start study , there is no way to fail . As my concept , go through once of the book hardly , confirm A , go through twice the book , confirm A1 . But the problem is , how could you expect me to start ?

I understand how important educations is . The world is now selecting sophisticated professional for greater pay . The higher you ranked , the more you gain . The more effort waged , the greater rewards gave . There will never be a free lunch without any pains . If I really can't get through there shits , there will be no more prediction for my future .

Now , I am looking on faces along with serious , demanding high score in results . The way they put their answers on the paper were better than me sitting down here writing craps . I am so disappointed on my self . But I never regret . It is still early for my change .

I will take things easy for this exam . I will never get hurt nor influence by marks nor people's said . I trust myself . As long as i accomplished the task , I will be satisfy . Hope teacher will not give any side sight on me , I am not abnormal , it is just beyond normal .

(=== Ended ===)
[ Corrected grammar and spelling mistakes ]
[ I type so fast , muahahax ]

Please come and see me ! I will try to help you . (Mr. Nicholas wrote that)

ROFL , I don't know how am I gonna face him ! LOLX !
I'm so death !!!!
Hahax . . . Nvm , don't think so much lerrr .

Knowing

2009-06-25T16:26:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to say ,
I don't know what to think ,
I don't know what to do ,
To stop the happening .

It is all began since the chaos meteos strike down ,
the infernals of crisis ,
were given a task of destruction .
But all these will not stop my affectionate to you .
I will protect you ,
until my last breathe ,
until my last drip of blood .

I wrote that , i wrote that . Very quickly , in the Wednesday Biology class .
It started with Aaron . He influented me to write that .
Until today , I watch the movie known as Knowing .
Prior of this , I heard Jason said before , he said this movie is about a girl who wrote a paper of numbers , numbers are representing coordinates , date and number of people's death in the future . After it reach the future , someone found out the paper's meanings . Codes , numbers , death .
That time , Jason said that , I was thinking it sounds not bad . But we ended up with didn't watch the movie .
But today I watched ! This movie was like messaging my imaginations to the world . I really thought the same way as the movie , with an exception of the number things .
Let me give a synopsis of the movie's story :

It is all began with a girl , a freak girl , around 9 years old . Genius , but is inspirited .
One day , her teacher asked the class to draw about our future .
The purpose of the draw is to keep all children's imagination of future into a time capsule and keep inside a underground hole for 50 years . After 50 years , it will be expose back .
Everyone was drawing those highly technologies and machinery .
But the girl was writing a paper full with numbers .
As I mentioned , the numbers arranged according to coordinates , dates and number of deaths .

After 50 years , the school was then celebrate 50 years anniversary .
The time capsule was then been expose .
The little drawing of the freak girl had been taken by a professor's child .
The professor ignore the the drawing with numbers in the first place , but after that , he understood the numbers . He made researches to look back on the history via internet browser . After all the researches , he finally believe the numbers .
Then he looked forwards to the date nearby , that is tomorrow .
He based on the numbers and estimated 81 people will die tomorrow .
Very lucky , the tomorrow came , and he was there at the place of accident .
He watched a plane crushed down . People died , exactly 81 peoples died . He can't save them . ( the view was just like Left 4 Dead , completely similar ! Like zombies been burned , ran around , OMG totally match )
Not just that incident , he was then involved with another few incidents . He tried to prevent all the happening , but no one believed him . Therefore , peoples died . ( it is really sad , you try to imagine , you know the happening , but you can't do anything to stop all the happenings , all those happenings consume peoples' lives ! It is terribly sad ! )
After all those occurrences , the last few numbers were left .
Last few numbers showed the date and stated there everyone will die in that day . As known as doomsday .
The professor tried to stop , but he failed .
But , before the world been vanished by the huge sun flare ,
only the chosen one stand a chance to escape from the Earth to another perfect world .
The chosen one was few couple of kids . They were been transport to another world , paradise .
The remaining was all wiped out .
But those chosen one was given a task of starting a new era , new lives .
The movie ended up with a nice scenery , a huge land which covered with yellow , soft grasses and a huge golden apple-like-tree .

The movie really really touches me . Really ! REALLY !
The climax parts and the ending parts was exactly same as what I thought !
I always been thinking , how our world is gonna end up with ? How our world is gonna end up with ?
Now , the prediction of our future can be based on this movie .
It sounds more logic compare with The Day The Earth Stood Still and Wall-E and many more .
But all these movies always ended up with second chance . Always . . .

Some time I really feel too much in a movie . I can feel what other people can't feel , understand what other people can't understand . I will be like thinking thinking and keep thinking after the movie shown . Aiiks ~ Maybe I watch before too many movies and dramas ad lahh , that why I so like to think , imagine xD ~
I'm not abnormal , I'm just beyond normal !!!!!!!! xD
Especially recently , I keep thinking about our world , don't really know how it gonna end up with ~ I think I can declare my self as , top movies-goer , no one ever watch more movies and dramas compare with me xD ~

I think I really love watching fiction movies , especially about future xD .
I hope more movies will be theme about Doomsday .
I will never forget this movie , KNOWING .

Emo

2009-06-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

I been sitting down on this chair for hours ,
yet still lazy to start doing homework .
Aiiks , this is what life really is .

I have been thinking since some times ,
the world is changing to a modern , high technology and machinery and strongly facilitated .
All these ideals are just to make us comfort , make our lives easy and so on .
But do these really work ?
Frankly , all these make things worst .
Invention of light , had made Edison repeating trying for years .
Why must him stress up himself ?
Not just him , all those who invented something , realized natural phenomena , just all those freaking scientists , do they make the world to a better place ?

Lots of movie showing how our future is gonna be .
How the world is gonna been vanished .
It is either human being able to escape from Earth to outer space or die here .

The perfect world for those sophisticated people is always highly facilitated , but for me , the true perfect world is the nature .
I realized this since my tuition teacher said it .
He said , in this world , nothing can ever been create by human being [ except offspring , xD ] .
Even an atom , it exist by it self , no one can ever create an atom .
The world is born by the mother nature .
No one ever knows how the world been created .

There is something special that I am always thinking ,
we normal human being are just using 3% of our brain capacity ,
with an excessive of 1% , they were known as genius .
Example like Newton and Einstein .
They came out with physic laws , GENIUS , they are .
If we human being able to use half of our brain capacity , OMG , I really don't know what will happen .
Maybe we can fly , sidekick , infinite strength , think wisely , just similar to superman .
Even movies never show before de superman .
Just , just , unpredictable ~You know what am I saying ?
Beyond-ing-ly , limitless , boundless of possibilities . [ Next time can direct such movie ad , sure get most selling ticket award in Oscar ~ xD ]

Haizya , no matter how la , improvement of technologies will make our future worst !
I don't care how useful is that , but there is still some hidden consequences .
Nothing in this world is perfect , NOTHING !
The word 'perfect' is use to describe our past , primeval forms of life .
Maybe I am too lazy to face the world that I'm standing upon now ,
but it is the truth I guess ~

Please save the world , environment friendly please , green up the world !
I am so glad that I'm a vegetarian ! ROFL ! xD
Don't harm animals anymore , they have feelings too !
Aiiya suan le la , I am just a man , no expectation of an one-self changing the world back to perfect .

Haizya , the world is still too big for us to understand , we are just using 3% of our brain capacity , what can we expect ? Wait die lohh . . .
Just let it be lahhh ~ ™

And and and , jie , actually I wanna mention you on this post de lohh , but dono why , write write write , write until this ~ >_<
I write it next time bahh ~ Love ya ~ xD

Hahax

2009-06-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

ROFL ! LMAO ! LOLX !

My tooth brush dropped into toilet bowl !

I was thinking , how if my tooth brush drop into toilet bowl , who knows the next second it drop !

It commit suicide ! Noob tooth brush !

LOLX ! LMAO ! ROFL !

Thanks

2009-06-16T20:54:00.000+08:00

I am so so so so happy ~
I love you all so much ~
Hahax , thanks for the bag .
First must thanks to Jason ! I LOVE YOU ! ! !
AND ALL OF YOU !!!! THANKS A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know what to say , but I can say the bag is awesome !
Damn pretty ! The one i dreamed for !
Must thanks to Jason !
We went to Jusco that day , we watch blood , then we go kaikai ~
Then we go in converse's shop , then I saw the bag , damn chun ! 130 something !
OMG , unexpected , except my family , you all are the second to giving me so chun de present !!!!!!!!
I don't even feel to use it , because it is too PRETTY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really can't believe , he suggest to buy for me and share with all our friends !
I LOVE YOU ALL ! If my first kiss had given , I'm gonna kiss you all one by one !
Muackss muackss muackss !!!
I think Malaysia should do something like a certification of friendship .
We got marriage cert , but why no friendship cert ?
ROFL !

And to my family , especially my bro .
He bought me a watch ! Damn cool !
Black black , heavy heavy !
Pretty until don't know I should wear it often or not !
REALLY FREAKING NICE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Really really nice ! I think it is the best watch I ever see !
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And my jie , give me a teddy , hahax ~ Thanks ^^ ~
You give me what I also like de ~ ^^
Thanks for your 'love' latter also ~ HAHAX !

And all my friends who celebrate with me at McDonald !
Although nothing much I can eat there , but I still like the place !
It is a professional fast food restaurant ever !!
We have our good time there ! THANKS TO AARON !
You invited so many of them ! Thanks !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^
We chat for hours ! ROFL , talking about our future !
Yea , Weeyan , we are matured man !
We think so far ! ROFL !
Too bad leong not there , nvm , I understand ! +U+U !!!!

And thanks to the birthday card !
Although it is simple , but it is meaningful to me !
Hahax , you all de words are so funny !! ROFL !
I read ad also smiled ^^
Hahax , and all of you mostly having nice signature like mine ! ^^

And and and all those who wished me !
Jiejie lah , kaili lah , Siewyi lah , Jason lah , Leong lah , Weeyan lah ,Aaron lah , William lah , Heng lah ,Weijian lah , Stephanie lah , Qunyuan lah , Saupang lah , Cheahyi lah , Vincci lah , WeiQian lah , Szeyee lah , Diane lah , Saywen lah , Kahjun lah , Kokleng lah , Weixiang lah , Lupchung lah , Laychong lah , Young lah , Minghui lah , Malenie lah , Jieying lah , Gopi lah , Fidaus lah , Elanie lah , Seowfong lah , Weijie lah , Zaikai lah , Weejuan lah , Yeehui lah , Kristine lah , Wendy lah , Meiyen lah , Narren lah and this two specialist , Yiksoon and Shienrun , wish like no wish de ! HAHAX , ok la , I understand you two shy , nvm nvm I forgive ~ ROFL ! And and and , Pn Ong and the physic teacher ! If I'm 20++ , and a malay , I will defirnitely chase you , physic teacher !!!!!!!! THANKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

REALLY THANKS TO YOU ALL ! LOLX !
Can't believe my birthday was so grand !
Maybe I was too kind la , been loved by everyone ! ROFL !
Honestly , I LOVE YOU ALL TOO !!! MUACKSSS !

I was like getting Oscar award , standing on the stage saying all my thanks !
ROFL ! Maybe one day if really happen , I will surely mention a grand name representing all of you ~ That is ' My Insane friends ' ~ ROFL !!!!!!!!!!!!!
I first time write one post write until so stupid ~
Zzz , nvm , I know you all understand ! ROFL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forget to tell you guys my 3 wishes .
The first one is -
Get 7 A1 in finale exam .
The second one is -
Hope everyone stay healthy , boy de get more and more handsome , girl de get more and more pretty .
The third one is -
(it shouldn't been told , but I don't mind these things)
Faster get one cute girl friend xD !
ROFL !
Must come true lohhh ! One year 3 wishes nia ahh ! LOLX !

Hackers

2009-06-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

I really don't understand why the world having some fucking idiots .
I hardly can't understand .
Why must they hurt others to gain self-comfort ?
Come on idiots , use you brain to think ,
if the incidences happen upon you , how would you feel ?
Had you ever use your mummy given de fucking brain to think ? HUH ?!
Hacker is totally equal to failure .
Unable to reach your self-targeted aim , you enable yourself by using illegal ways for your succeed ?
Do this still calling achievement ?
Frankly , this is desperately worst than those . . . those who are not achieving .
How fun is gonna be hacking is ? HUH ?!
Ok , I admit , I do use hacking programme before , but that is not hacking on others .
It does not influence any other players .
Unlike you these fucking failure hackers !
Hack others' properties and then self call yours ?
Take your piss of ~
Idiots !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You these were doing profanity !
God is watching on you !
And I swear you will never dream to having good life in the future !
I guarantee !
I suggest you why not you rob the bank ?
At least bank having insurances which will deduct their lost .
But in game , who will be the medium as savior ?
Insurance ?
AsiaSoft ? I think is money solve !
Tell me , WHO ?
FUCK ! You hack me , I'm totally fine .
But the items in my account it is not mine ! !
This is really fucking shit !
And I am not hacked just once nor twice , but trice !
How am I gonna repay to Kfoo and Heng ?
I really felt so guilty on them !
They help me , but I made lost from them !
Holiness , I am really wondering do the god doing his job ?!
Come on man , the word is changing back to the evil side !
Humanity is no longer approaching to the right side .
If you do still siting up there and saying FATE FATE FATE ,
you are damn wrong ! GOD !
Nothing is controlled by FATE .
The word fate is for those idiots which are giving up hope in life or an aim .
Those psycho which out on track of mind or a handicap on thinking . Those people only believe in fate !
Life falls on your hand , everyone stands a chance to change their life into better life .
I had forgotten what phrase Smallville show me , but I do remember the meaning !
Back to the hacker , I am here cursing the whole world who are hacking !
You will definitely face a grand critic in your future , terror , horrifying , unpredictable occurrence which made you harder than facing death !
Hackers , you all are sons of all bitches !
FUCKING FAILURE !

And Kfoo and heng , very sorry about the items .
I never mean it . Just happy malpling .
I am quick from the game .
Thanks for your helps along the way in mapling .

Profanity ?

2009-06-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

The following containing issue might disagreeable to you . Please maintain the point of you to me , don't influence by just this single post . I'm still good boy . ^^

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The word started with F , ended with K and inserted with U and C in the between .
The word was known as fuck .
It is not a profanity word , and it should not been foul from language .
We should stop the offensive from using this powerful word .
Don't tell me any shits that the word is illegal , it is wrong to say , but I agree that it is not advisable to use .
Frankly , it is all depends on who are you talking with , either an open minded of one-self or an one-self which is always following codes or rules .
Every word is was created with meanings . Don't believe you try to search the word's meanings .
Holiness , the description is 100% bringing the meaning .
Word is use to write , speak . Not to be ban from using .
If it is , then what for of the invention of the word ?
Get back to the point , personally , I'm strongly promoting this word .
I mean use this word often .
It is usable in any situations , describable in any conditions as a perfect adjective .
I repeat myself , a perfect adjective . Don't believe , you try it out . Instead of saying very , just replacing the very with fucking . It sound more America ~ ROFL !
It might sound weird from some people from saying that word , but it is never for me .
The word must be saying constantly to maintain or get rid from weird-ness .
Of cause , not only this word , there is still tons of words which are similar . I'm just referring it as a grand example .
Therefore , felt no guilty saying any fucking words .

Understandings

2009-06-03T21:20:00.001+08:00

Before my calm

In my whole life ,
I most hate those fuckers underestimate me !!!
Especially saying with the word NOOB !
KNN , CCB ! No one ever say I noob before at game how dare you these two fuckers say me noob !
FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Limitation of patient had beyond !
I can't endure anymore fuck !
I have being in such a good manner for 16 years !
But recently , feeling of indignation were injected to me second by second !
I also have anger senses !
You guys make me fucked up !
I really really can't take any else of you guys incorrect judgment !
Every time you hit me once I endure once .
Any fucking words from you to me , I pretend no heard .
But , I really can't endure anymore fucking shits !
In all my friends , there is only 2 friends of mine were always saying fucking words to me ~
Although it is not much , but I still mind in sense just in today itself . I also don't know why I suddenly mind .

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After I calmed

I really hope it nothing happened .
I been through a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of fucking things that you had never been through and you will never wished to happen .
Every night I sleep , I will also always been recalled .
Whoever feel you are in difficulty , you are a failure . Because even me didn't felt so .
And now an unpredictable thing happened around me which I am not really fucking willing to accept !
That's linking me to release my feeling whenever ~
I am very sorry about my actions .
If you really can't forgive , I think I no longer require having you such an idiot !
I think you won't make me down right ?
I think you guys understand ~
I am highly , terribly , incredibly , horribly , extremely , desperately and
beyond-ing-ly SORRY !!!
I think these made me felt and hardly realized what is called true friendship ~
We guys will always best friends !

Examination

2009-05-27T16:56:00.000+08:00

If any one gonna look on my marks and start laughing ,
this will I gonna say with a loud sonance .

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You son of the bitch !
What the fuck are you laughing at ?
Be clear who are you looking at .
Non other than the enigmatic wanxiang .
No no no . You shut - - the hell up .
I am the one who talking here .
You fuck your ass down . Ok ?
I bet your mama never told you why had been such a failure .
You are just like the fuckers fucking along the street ,
giving a note to a slut so she can suck dick .
You and them ,
make - no - differences ! ! Ok ?
Oh my oh my ,
are you gonna punch me ? HUH ?
Talk to my hand man !
Please stop . I don't want your explanation , description nor further informations !
Don't cry don't cry ,
if you want ,
go cry to your mama ,
not here .
Please stop embarrassing your self ,
shame of you .
You wanna talk to me ,
stand a side of the door ,
Shout to me .
Make sure you have a right tone .
Now fuck - - - OFF !
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I bet that guy have no any single second to give any reactions .

17th May 2009

2009-05-17T22:30:00.001+08:00

Leehom !
Happy Birthday !
Although we are far apart ,
but the loudest place to shout is here !
Happy Birthday !
_i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i
[_____________________________]

Happy 33rd Birthday ~
I support you forever ~ !

Doubt

2009-05-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to wonder ,
am I writing too long ?
Oh my oh my ,
trust me , no matter how long is it ,
you also must read finish .
You know why you must ?
Because since you click into this blog ,
you was been cursed .
If you didn't read finish ,
your mama will lost one of her hairs .
Don't believe ? You try lahh . Nanti cry don't cari saya .
I won't help you find gehh .
Even your knees were down .

For my faithful readers ,
stop praising me . Lately I gained too many on itself .
Aku tak boleh afford anymore !
ROFL ! Just joking . Aku memang behiaoba sia .

Targeted

2009-05-08T00:22:00.001+08:00

Targeted ! This word always link me to Eagle Eye the movie ~ ! Kanchiong !

The targeted of this was about what happened on this Monday .
Early assembly . A assembly started with crap but ended up with terror , wraith and sob .

I was like saying that , are the teachers out of their mind ?
Crazy , go back to your house and sweep the floor .

But at least I know something about teacher now . But there is a question in my heart keep on questioning myself but I have no one to confirm with . So , I am telling you guys now . I had been targeted . Do I ? No lahh . Just joking lahh .

En Yunus , Pn Alijah , Pn Sia , En Nicholas , En Kamal was all there . Issue of hair ~
Craps ~ While teachers are cuting students' hair , I was naive and thinking that teachers were sucks , horrible sucks !
When the amount get less , I started to panic ! Everyone lead towards En Kamal . Because he cut students' hair a bit nia ~
They memang teruk one loh . Give En Kamal cut ho , cut cut cut , suddenly left me alone there .
I looked around and think WTF ?!
The Pn Alijah started to ask me question about the hair .
Then I replied : Hair doesn't important also . I still do come here to study . ( although I didn't)
Then Pn Alijah told Pn Sia what I said . Then Yunus also come visit me liao .
Then Pn Sia terus say , this boy ahh , from last year hair already started to be this kind already .
Then they ask why must you make your hair like this ?
I replied because for my self confidence .
Then Yunus ask do you think you look nice now ? Do girl will like you ?
I didn't sure for this so I didn't reply .
Then Yunus come with 2nd combo , do you need me to tell you the rules of XXX XXX XXX (craps) .
I replied my self : I do respect those rules , but not in the sense of hair . . . Appearance . Of cause , neat tie and uniform is of cause , I do obey that .
Then the Pn Alijah started to ask : Are you Malaysian ? Are you Malaysian ?
LOLX ! I hope I can answer no ~ . But I am. I told her .
I said that , maybe I had been influence by other country . I told her I watch Japan Animations , Taiwan drama . I was use to it .
Then Yunus also asked : Do your dad also dress like you ?
I replied : Because my dad was aged .
They ask ask ask , I answer answer answer .
It's like they are listening to me man ~ LOLX ~
Then Pn Alijah said , I can send this incidence to PPD ad .
Then I'm thinking : Wuuuuuuuuu , I'm so geng sia ~

At last talk finish already Yunus still wanna cut my hair . He call me go wash my hair 1st .
So I face the mirror and say my farewell to my hair .
Then I go back out , Yunus progress my hair . T_T
And I started to sob . Just a little . For no reasons ~ LOLX .
Yunus said this then : I salute you , you at least dare to say your opinion . The thing happen now you maybe can't understand , but in the future you will understand .
Holiness , this phrase I will never accept it . I can guarantee in the future , nothing is wrong about hair . I can think further than you do , Yunus !
I will make sure in the future , I will be respected and been accepted !

Now you see , whole school 500++ students .
Only one people able speak out loud in front of teaches .
Who else gonna be ?
None other than the enigmatic wanxiang .

Freakernizer

2009-05-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

Freakernizer is my creation . Don't be so stupid go check dictionary ! LOLX !
I get it from another word , womanizer . . . So this post call freaker-nizer . LOLX !

At first , what I gonna say is . . . what am I eating now .
I tell you already , make sure you don't learn it from me !
I am eating plain rice + kicap ! LOLX ! Heng will ask where is your veggie ?
Allow me to tell you , the veggie became lapsap already lohh . Put for 4 hours already . My mum call me eat at 7 , I drag until 11 only eat . Memang WTF sia ~
You know why am I so kolian now ?! Because I wrote the post Vibrations for hours !
WTH , that post was like forcing my idea to come out ! WTF sia !

LOLX , I going crazy . . . You know why ? Leehom's song is on the track now ~ That why . . .
I am so hyper now ~ LOLX !
Ok la , stop craping lahh , Ma Pu Ki ~ LOLX ~

This post I want share about Smallville and PrisonBreak ~ My English Lessons ~
Holiness , at first , I wanna say that later the phrase appear down there was all been copy-righted .
The things I wanna mention is classification of language between Malaysia level and America level .

Malaysia Class -> Nothing is impossible
America Class -> Possiblities are limitless

Malaysia Class -> I never treat him as my son .
America Class -> I never bond the relationship of mother and son between me and him .

Malaysia Class -> I had put my loyalty on here more than ever .
America Class -> No one ever question my loyalty in here , for years .

Malaysia Class -> Kill him after he had accomplish his task .
America Class -> You will be the one who pull the trigger in his mouth after his return .

Malaysia Class -> He did his brother duty to me more than you had never did to me .
America Class -> He was more of a brother to me than you were ever a mother .

Malaysia Class -> It will be my pleasure to have this honor to meet you , the legendary Lana Lane .
America Class -> The enigmatic Lana Lane . To what I have this honor with ?

Malaysia Class -> What are you thinking about ?
America Class -> You're holding on to something .

Malaysia Class -> Sacrifice is not gonna be the option while deciding .
America Class -> To choose a greater good is never gonna be sacrifice .

Malaysia Class -> Go complain about this to your lawyer .
America Class -> Go cry to your mama .

See the differences ? Oh my god ! America Drama is so damning freaking nice man ! They like playing with their words . So fun sia ~

And my own creation of phrase .
After this incidence , my life was edited with meanings .
Appreciate fully makes no regrets .
Your laughter ended up my stress . (although this is Leehom's but original was Chinese , act me as a medium of translate)
A past that never able to get back .

I love this ''After this incidence , my life was edited with meanings . ''
Don't you feel it is powerful ? Wakakakax !

Be honest with you guys , actually all my blog was all written with the help of dictionary .
This dictionary is vital use than ever . Geng sia ~ This dictionary didn't take any cost , any complex way of finding words . It is just a web site . http://dictionary.reference.com/ Yea , this was it . Don't be too touch man . Hold your tears . Let me get you a tissue man . Hehex .
This web site help me a lot when I am writing post . Any words I don't know how to spell this dictionary will help . This dictionary also can help to search for double words meanings . Not always single .

I really love watching Smallville or PrisonBreak . It is like every 10 sentences there will be 8 of them are fascinated words . So hope I can remember all of them . So then next time wanna LanC or have a professional conversation , bring no trouble .

Vibrations

2009-05-07T19:50:00.000+08:00

It started with a slide . It just like Marvel's movie . Comic pictures .
A comic with a hero in it . Music - Man . The comic pictures show how Music - Man save the pollution in your ears . It was so cool ! The sound effect was so great , the loudness was incredible and caused huge vibration . After the slide ~ ~

He stood on the lined board , slowly landing down to the stage .
The second he reach the stage , he sang this with a slow

and sad voice .

What's wrong with me ?
Wro-o-ong with me
我还相信爱
怎么那么奇怪?
What's wrong with me?
Wro-o-nong with me
我还相信人
I must have a problem !

In that time , the whole stadium was been silenced . Everyone looks on him . I felt that he was just in front of me , my heart started to vibrate . It was may be I get touch by his starting .
After he sang finish that part , the whole stadium started to scream !
Holiness , the feeling was so nice . It's like you have been teleport-ed to a paradise .
Everyone was like going crazy , screamed like no body buisness was needed to care .
I scream too !

And then Lee Hom started to greed us after his first and second songs .
He said with two type of microphone .
The first one was electric-dised microphone (that mean those computer voices) , the second one was the normal one .
He said :
(with normal microphone) : 大家high不high ?!
We replied : HIGH !
(with normal microphone) : 今天很开心可以来到 Malaysia 举办我的演唱会 .
We replied : Hoooooooo ! (cheering)
(with electric-dise microphone) : 我不是你所为的 . . . Superman , Spiderman , Batman . No no no
我是 Music-Man !
We replied with a loud sonance : Wooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh !

Man , that was really really cool , I don't know how to discribe , but it was very very cool !

And and , after an hour the concert , when he started to open his piano , he said , 演唱会才刚刚开始 , 刚才是软身而已 . WTF , passed an hour already he still saying this ~.~

Leehom's English is so great . Even aku pun tak faham .
That is what I call processed in America human being .
And he also say HI to other country fans which came to Malaysia that night .
Indonesia , he said Terima Kasih .
Singapore , he said some fluent English which I have no ability to understand .
Japan , he said sahshiburi , means long time no see . Hardly can't believe I understand what he said . Hahax , see , watch anime also brings banefit de .

In the concert , it was really really special , his guitar >Bahamut<(cost RM92,000) , violin , piano were all presented with excellence . Especially violin , when he played the song 洛叶归根 . The whole stadium 250,000 spectators scream like freaks ! It was so cool , his emotion , his face expression was so serious ! Now I finnally understand why girls say 认真的男人是最帅的 . Do you ever see before the way he plays the violin ? His heart and soul were just been combined with the violin , the music attacked my heart . I can hardly feel the touch-ness from the vibrations . Oh my god , that was the thing I called HOLINESS ! In the piano side , he play so easily . He played the song and sang these songs : 爱的鼓励 , 你不再 , 唯一 and a lot more . When he sing Forever Love , he came down the stage , and went to the first row under the stage and shake hand with them . Haiz , VVIP seats ! I miss 2 chances to get it ! WHAT A WASTE ! I will regret for my whole life ! And and when he sing 在梅边 , he made a magic trick . He went in a box then BOOOM , he suddenly appear behind . Then he slowly walk back to the stage . COOOL sia , the next time BOOOM will appear in front of me already ! LOLX ! And and and , the most special is when he sing 改变自己 , there is 4 Leehoms on the stage ! The first one call 小王 , 小力 , 小宏 and 王力宏 . Until now I still can't figure out , who is the first 小王 , is it Leehom himself ? No matter what , four of them look a same . Maybe because they wear until covered the 50% of the face . In the concert , I also realized some of his songs true meanings . I feel the words . Lee Hom must be crossed some incidences only able to write out such a nice song . Your laughter ended up my stress . Oh my god , how can he found out such a good phrase !? If anyone tell you this , what will you feel ? It is so . . . . 'xinfu' . Like you have been drugged in 'xinfu-ness' . And I have to say that 250,000 of Leehom's fans were so HIGH ! They shout without thinking the end of sore throat . We all scream in the same time , silence in the same time , follow him to sing in the same time . We are so cooperative . When the concert had last 10 minutes , Leehom said 演唱会才刚刚开始 , 刚才是软身而已 again . Everyone laugh ! LOLX ! His last song of the day was Kiss Goodbye . He came out with a joke which saying that : Actually I wanted to kiss everyone of you , because all of you did great today . But my organizer said this is not a wise idea , because we having pig disease recently , so it is not the best option . So I will kiss you all by singing Kiss Goodbye . LOLX !!!! We feel like after this concert , our life was been edited with meanings . In the future , if I work already , and his concert is on , I must go to Taipei's . Because there was the place numbered millionss . I conclude that in that day I had finally fulfilled with anxious ! LeeHom , MUSIC-MAN , YOU ROXX MAN ! Actually I do not know how to write much on this post , I tried to write better , but all of them hardly can't be describe what fully happened on the concert . Here is some picture of the concert . The concert was not allow to bring camera , those who bring , the guards will take away your camera's batteries . So these pictures was all taken by using my phone ~ The larger picture is copied from other blog .

王力宏腳本完整版

2009-04-30T21:19:00.001+08:00

Randomization

2009-04-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

Randomization post .
I really enjoy writing this blog .
Every time ended my game , I will always open up FireFox and log on to my blog .
I really really hope readers will enjoy reading my blog . Because I also enjoy reading my blog even for over hundred times .
I really hope I can write my blog excellence-ly . Because I feel like blog is a part of my life .
It may be because I like to show myself to others .
It is not showing off , but make people know me more .
Errr , not actually that only , just showing that I should not be underestimate by others .
Ya ya , something like that .

I really feel myself is good in these stuffs . Feelings . . .
I might looks crazy in the school , but I'm a mature minded .
I always can think wisely . Feel correctly .
But in studies , without effort , I'm nothing . Now I'm giving non effort , so my results sucks sia !
I really never get serious in studies . Never hardworking before . What to do ? Having a 'brilliant machine'(computer) , and no one can control me even my mum LOLX (cause my mum and me very close de) . So how can I control myself ? No one can man !
Every time try to think ' I must finish that Sejarah homework today !' , but always end up with nothing . *LOLX*

I really hope the things I thought before will all write them down on this blog , but always I can't remember . Sometime , when I'm at out station , I found out special things then I will always quickly make up a sentence with fantastic word . But I can't remember always . *Haizz*

The post below of this was all used plenty of time to accomplish .
The Leehom post , I write already then correct for several times . And the pictures , it is so hard to get them ! The picture I get if from official Leehom's website . The picture can't copy . So I print screen then paste it on paint . Then slowly process the picture then only upload to blog . Complicated sia . Plus the youtube videos ! Say also angry ! I don't know how to put youtube video on my blog . I try so many ways , click here click there spend around an hour only done . Then ho , when I wanna post 'Change me' this mtv , I try few videos but can't then lastly click until this one only success . Intricate sia ! And ahh , the 'Everything' video , I want find full version de , find here find there still can't get . Wahlau , the youtube memang trying my patient sia ! ! Plant bomb at your HQ then you know ahh ! Grrrrrrrr ! Make it more organize lahh !
And ho , all other posts , I spend at least 30 minutes on each of them .
All those effort I place on this blog is just to gain reaction from you guys .
Then I will be happy enough . This is the purpose of me to continue writing post . *Kekex*
I feel like this post talk some kind of crap . But this is really what i feel . Just telling .
Therefore , you guys' supports are important for me to continue writing !

Wang Leehom - Change Me

2009-04-25T19:42:00.001+08:00

Leehom - Everything

2009-04-25T19:13:00.001+08:00

Leehom

2009-04-24T14:36:00.000+08:00

UPGRADED (CHANGED)

Oh man , it is hard to make you guys continue reading .
I need you guys' support . And of cause , girl as well .
Posting the best post , using the best language of mine . I really tried my best to write the best out for you guys . *Cheerss*LOLX*
By making single word title is it workable to attract you to read ?
Personally , I felt so .
Using special way of writing . Not English essay , but wanxiang's product .
Be patient , after reading you will feel no waste . Trust me man !

Leehom , Taiwan well talented singer , creative composer and a professional musician . If you are not a Chinese , it is normal you don't know him , but if you are , shame for yourself ! *Hahax*This is what he really is . I have his latest album now >心跳< . It's bringing the meaning of heart beat .

Here is some picture of his album .

(Click on the picture for closer and clearer view)
Visit http://wangleehom.com/gallery for more pictures of his .

I never expect he will be so handsome in these pictures in his album .
As always , he is just the best singer for me . And not the most handsome one . Now , I think I should change the way of thinking already . As the handsome-est man ! Without any make up , his appearance looks so well . Man and giving me a feeling of those who are with him are always safe .

I like him not just because of his good looking face , but as well as on his music . His latest songs are so godly nice . His creation and his style will always be there in any else of his album . This is the unit of Leehom . I suggest one excellent song in his latest album which is very very good , named Everything . It is at top there , but it had been shorten .

And and and , please don't talk bad of his in front of me . It's like you are saying me too .
I know most of you like Jay-chou more , but if you were me , you will know clearly what is the differences between Jay-chou and Leehom .
Oppositely , if you praise my Leehom , I will felt happy for him .

Be honest with you , when the day I bought his album and look on the MTV .
I feel like Leehom is my father . He looks like my dad . You saw the MTV everything ? When he is playing the piano in the dark , he looks my my dad when he is on his work . Maybe I think to much . And and and my mum name call 林丽虹 , it sound a same as 王力宏 . That is why I love Leehom so damn-ie much for yearss !

Besides , his concert , Music-man 2009 held in Bukit Jalil this 2nd of May . I might be going .
If there is no any sudden changes , I will be going there .
I can't wait for that day . I will be sitting at the front which cost RM398 although I haven't book the ticket . But for sure , if I'm going that will be the position I SOL (shout out loudly) . *Hehex*

In addition , there are 4 people say before I look alike with Leehom . (Not included my classmates) And every time the people say , there will be the second people agree with it . (I am really wonder : Am I ?) But I won't think too much . Because psychology said a person who miss another person , their looks will look more and more similar time to time . This is proven as all the couples and husband & wife make a perfect match . May be I miss Leehom too much . *LOLX*

I always treasure Leehom's effort . I wonder how can I live without your creations .

Appreciate

2009-04-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

Appreciation , it is important .
No matter in what condition , either wraith or joy .
Appreciate the feeling . Not until you lost it .
Jay Chou say before 珍惜一切就算没有拥有 in his song .
I will never forget what he said .

It is really really important to learn how to treasure things around you .
I give you an example , a small example prove how important appreciate really works .
If you lost your phone , no matter it is sucks or ugly , everyone will defenally

Sniped

2009-04-17T15:57:00.000+08:00

Today , I watch a movie call '神枪手' (The SNIPER) .

Since this year , I get my self involve in 1st person shooter games .
Example like Counter Strike , Sudden Attack , Black Shot , Left 4 Dead . And play a few time of Half-life and Quake III . These games build up my interest on guns .

Get back to the movie , the story themed police .
A man , a police , a professional sniper , but a bad habit person . No conversation to anyone , no friends except one .
One fine night , he and his friend was on a mission to take down a burglar in a bank . Police had surround the bank . 3 teams of sniper is guard from different angle . 1st , 2nd and 3rd of all sniper teams were not allow yet to shoot until they been commanded . But , the professional sniper take the aim and shot to the burglar . The reason he shoot is because the burglar was gonna pull the grenade's trigger . But unluckily , a innocence people head had protected the burglar from the bullet . So then , he was been jailed . For 4 years .
After the 4 years , he came out . And ranked his self as the bad guy . He took revenge on the police . Especially the 2nd team of the sniper team on that day . Because 2nd sniper should saw the burglar action . Is the 2nd sniper said 'no' to the questioning officer about the incidence .
His professional sniper skills killed lots of police . But end up with death .

In the movie , I learned sniper skills . Angle , direction of wind , strongest of wind , distance , temperature , weather will all affect result in accuracy . Heart beat , breathe rate , sharpness , speed of the shooter will also affect the accuracy . Now I understand how hard to take a aim . Not like in the game . A sniper will normally able to take a target in the distance of 500m . In the range of 500m your target point will be big when you aim on an object . Try to imagine . It is impossible for a noob to shoot using a sniper .

Now , I understand how hard a soldier or a police is . Strength , ability , accuracy , reaction , planing , speed were all needed for melee combat , ranged snipe , short range shooting ability .
I am wondering if I am strong , why not i be a S.W.A.T. . I think I will enjoy my self eventhough putting my self in a risk . Doing hero jobs . And experience different situation in every any mission . Too bad , we are in Malaysia , all crime are stupid crime . Police is the stupid justice that can't stop any crime but earn lots of money from us . What a failure is this .

Smallville

2009-04-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

Now showing season 8 in the net .
I have been following Smallville since I'm small .
When I'm small , I don't understand why is this drama so nice for my dad and bros ?
I'm just naive thinking that cartoon will be better .
But now , I changed . Now i truely understand what are they saying .
Words like kryptonia , brainiac , meteor rocks , Kar-El (superman real name) , Jor-El (his real dad name) . . . Now I know entier Superman story .
People like Lana Leng , Loise Lane , Oliver Queen , Lex Luthor , Chloe . . . I know all of them . . .
This drama is freaking nice . The words they say are so meaningful . I watch this drama feeling like entering a English class without any pressure . Learn words , learn their slang , learn how American speak .

Future

2009-04-06T16:45:00.001+08:00

Actually , I still don't know yet what my future really is . It might be just an analysis .
Future is the thing gonna happen in future . (talking crap , LOLX )
What I really mean is future include occupation and family as well .

Honestly , I have no fix ambition yet . Whenever I saw anything new , I will keep thinking about it , why not I be some one like him in the future . Something like this .

I though before becoming some one like Leehom . But it's all too late , and kinda impossible .
Leehom a musician , a singer , a composer and born with a handsome face (like me , LOLX , bhb sia) . But it is all too late . These things should have been trained since small . Piano class , dancing class , speech & drama class ..... I am too old to start these things , and i drop my chinese (aiiks) . So i stop building sand castle in the air already , wasting my time and make me more sad . T_T

Now what i think what am i gonna be is a advertisement director , a total advertisement director .
In the sense of story , wording , ideas , advertisement model . Just everything about advertisement .
It sound like fun , using my imagination think something special that makes anyone and everyone who look on it on television felt impressive . Making millions feel my creation , letting them know which is the most impressive advertisement ever .
Sometimes i really thought a lot of ideas . When I have nothing to do , my brain love to think some things (cause no love one what to do ?) .

Sometimes a lot of ideas will come to my brain , there is no way closing the door and seal it then it will close the entrance . It is good , feeling myself is a half-genius . lolx ! But the bad thing is , I will never dream to memorize all . Once it is come it comes , when it is gone it is hard to get it back . That why opportunity will ever knocks once only .

If really can't be an advertisement director , I also wanted to be a game producer . But dono can earn a lot or not . After I graduate may be the world had a lot of good games that better than mine , how ? So this is not the best option .

Of cause of cause , you want me to be a freak just working whole day long ? Never dream of man . My future beautiful wife as well must exist . How can I leave in a world without the best relationship ever ? I am freaking curious thinking about how pretty is my wife will be in the future ? Of cause pretty no use , must be cute too , lolx ! No lahh , must take care of our child . I will be just wanting a daughter only . Cause daughter will looks like mom too LOLX . Bisides , my wife must be very 'xinfu' . The house financial must never be a problem for her to worry about . If she wanted to work let her work , if she really loves her job . But she didn't , she can take a broom and sweep the floor of the house , waiting for my return every evening . You know how xinfu is that . Aiiks .

And and how can I lose out my 2nd wife wohhhh . My dearest sport car .
Actually my dream car is Fairlady Nissan . But I saw people driving all around the town now days , it became so unrare . Grrrr , angry sia ... So I thinking to buy a Porshe in the future . Carrera GT Porshe , I think cost around 1.5 million . Dono i affort or not lehhh , but I want . T_T
But the problem is the car only have 2 sits . Where is my daughter gonna sit then ? So I think that car is for my work uses . If I still affort , I will buy a Mercedes Benz S class . Hehex .

I wonder all of those will it come true . If really come true , I might be the xinfu-est person in the world already . Kekex !

Teachers

2009-04-06T15:54:00.000+08:00

Do you know , teachers in other country is a respected job ?
Unfortunately , Malaysia is not a right place .
If you planning to be a teacher in future , strongly advise , don't .

In our school , I got tons of words wanted to tell the teachers . Unluckily , I am not herolike , I have no guts . If you have it , say these to the teachers , of cause to the suck teachers not the god-y :

Dear teacher , are you doing your job ?
If you are not , I suggest why not you pick up a new career .
If you don't , student will be .... the victim .
A victim of gaining no knowledge , but more aversion .
Standing in front of the class , saying things that can't been understood . Is it fun ?
Or .... scolding something shouldn't been scolded .
Frankly , there is no job wanting an expert scold-er .
Give the fault to the god having this type of habit .
A teacher should have a feeling to teach their student very well every day when they face the _ mirror eventhough the student didn't appreciate .

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall , would you probably tell any teacher who face you , 'Am I doing my job ?' .

Secrets

2009-04-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

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HIGHEST RATING
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When I was small , I was just like your past , an oridary kidz .
I enjoyed my life fully , having the best in the way of everything .

It's all happened from when I'm standard 6 .
My dad was a manager , he worked in Nestle for 25 years .
He was a very good manager . Marketing , warehouse management was his job .
We had our semi-lavish life ever .
But life doesn't move so smoothly as wished .
Nestle company had found out my dad is working for other company .
Actually I don't know much about these .
The thing I remember is my dad is working for his friend company , just some minor work without paying I guess .
Nestle company had put my father on the court . After that , my dad lose his job .
His 25 years served to the company is just ended like no body business . The company fired my dad , not wanting my dad to resign . Why must the company use their fxxking brain and think , they didn't even appreciate my dad's effort . I HATE NESTLE PRODUCTS !

After all those hard and critic moment , my dad found and changed few job . Where by my dad worked at , where by the praise-ment from other workers either bosses will be gained .

Lastly , my dad found a good job at Singapore .
To continue carry out our daily expenses , the job there will make no trouble .
But the fxxking things is our family is no longer setting together , having dinner together , watched movies together , shop together .
Of cause , my dad will come back to Malaysia once in every 1 week either 2 .
And every holiday , my mom and I will go to Singapore staying with my dad .
My dad worked hardly there . My dad was like using his life to work .
Soul was all placed on work that he dislike .

Sooner nor later , stress , pressure , emphasis , is all formed .
These things had activated cancer cells .
WHY MUST THE WORLD TO BE SO FXXKING IMBALANCE !
Planting an atomic nuclear boom in our body ! Unhealthy body made the boom started to count down ! People did well in life will always goes badly ? Huh ?! Did the god making any sense ?

So then , my mom moved to Singapore taking care of my dad . Distanced away apart from . I was then staying in FXXKING grandma house !
Can't you hardly believe my dad took strongest analgesic(semi drug) to prevent pain of corruption of organ ?
My dad was slowly losing himself . His mental was no longer stable after a year since cancer formed . Lying on the bed , hardly can't move , transpiration trouble , respiration difficulty . I was just someone who can't help anything.
Second by second felt the left of dad . I was just like a freaking FXXKER haven't realized the importances . My dad staying survive in the world to continue looking at us . The pain , the feelings are hardly describe by using any FXXKING word . None word can be used .
Now I felt what a FXXKING son am I . Tell me , WHAT A FXXKING SON AM I!?
If i were my dad , why must I stay alive in the end of terrorfy death ?! I might make myself die and found dead in the side of high building . My dad was so strong to stay alive with us , he tried to enlong his life spand . He don't want to leave us . He was the beyond superman .

I don't know where my dad is now . Heaven with endless enjoyment will be better? Or will he miss us? On the funeral , anyone who know my dad cried , sob for a waste of a good man left .
Workmates , bosses , friends all came to give the last bless and prey .

I will never forget my dad which stay in my heart taking away the place of superman .
The things he left for us will be used wisely . Not even a single waste .

I wrote these is to remind myself what my dad did and gave . Affectionate to my dad will never stop as long as my heart is still jumping .

Hope readers after read will love their parents more . Not until you lost them . Appreciate fully makes no regrets . Hardly love your parents . You will never know what will happen next second . Mark my wordss .

Remake™

Life's complexity has no boundaries

Your act is what you are

It is not easy.

I'm motivated today~

I am begging you, please look at the world! Stop being a fucktard like what you are now!!! If you're a believer, IGNORANCE IS A SIN!!!

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24/03/2011

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first day and last day of work

Dream

My journey

Extraordinary

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Understandings

Examination

17th May 2009

Doubt

Targeted

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Vibrations

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Leehom

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